Love is not just an emotion

Heh...with such a serious title....you kinda expect me to be like all emo and preachy or smth like that...or like i got dumped/rejected or smth like that....Well....none of that nonsense....

Lets start...today during TOK...we had it at the CPA...really comfortable ^^. Anyways...I slept thru most of it...Amazing thing was...i was woken up when Wong Ping Loong started talking about LOVE. well...apparently, scientists have deduced that love and the effects we get are caused by some chemical called phynopthelemine (I know this sounds like the chemistry indicator but trust me...its entirely different)...so...rite after that i kinda payed attention :)...anyways...RIGHT after recess... saw edmund and wesley talking on the bridge...so decided to join them ^^...Seem like i was intruding lol...budden they didnt seem to mind...anyways... out of the blue, or prolly coz i was talking about that stoopid chemical that i cant spell, edmund suddenly said,"Love is not just an emotion"....This SERIOUSLY hit me... "If you love me you will obey my commands"...these are the Words of Jesus...serious stuff man...

Anyways...went home and read the final book of the Left Behind Series....Kingdom Come....really God-inspiring,....something i really needed to wake up my idea..."But Lord, love my enemies?"...."Yes..Pray for them...so that none my perish"....

These pass few days i was like going around saying "I love you" to like practically anyone..(mostly guys btw)... these words cant be taken lightly.... its a command...and i fully intend to follow it....You know what that means? <>< and WESLEY... you guys ARE going to accept CHRIST!!!! Coz i LOVE YOU GUYS BEYOND MEASURE!!!! and i JUST CANNOT let you go to hell...Heres the first line of a song i just feel the presence of God in:

The Greatest Love that anyone could ever know
It overcame the cross and grave to find my soul

Its more than just an emotion..its ACTION...

Nites

Ryan

I'm Going On A Savings Spree!!

Sunday Night....the day before Monday Blues....and i suddenly realise im eating a LOT in skool....practially having 3 meals there.....and not ONLY does it mean i'm gonna grow fatter....BUT...I'm SPENDING MORE THAN I CAN AFFORD!!!

So....in light of all this information....no more 3 bucks pizza...no more 3 bucks ramly burger....just eat 1 lunch...THATS it....no more Hello Panda..Even though that is seriously too hard to bear....

Ok...other than talking about food....I'm gonna talk about my SPIRITUAL LIFE!!! Anyways...to all of you guys reading this....I'm quite sure you know that I'm a Christian...even though sometimes you can't tell by my behavior...Well....I've done some soul searching....so I'm TRYING to be a better Christ-Imitator....So that means,.....no more taking extended toilet breaks or ponning altogether Chinese Class.... I'll finish ALL my zuo wen (All 5 of them)....(You kind of realised everything is to do with Chinese).....and actually STUDY for my tests....So...if any of you pple see me slacking of during some of the periods...GImme a Gd knock and remind me...coz its SERIOUSLY difficult....

Ok...tts all i have to say...NITES!

Ryan

Yet another Thurday

The most dreaded day of the week......The day right before 'Thank God it's Friday'....the stoopid day that ends at 4.40....the day that has no reprieve from the never ending stream of lessons....HAS ONCE AGAIN CAME TO A CLOSE!!!! HURRAYY!!!!

Anyways.....had a 1 hour 20 min recess today...so trotted off to go play squash....I think i improved SLIGHTLY...used Tek's cheap tricks of bouncing all along the side walls....made Zhe Yu run a LOT ^^...in the end still lost sia....REALLY needa work on my serving....seriously too weak....

Well...today an additional thing happened....i seriously think its like a total accident....Bert threw the squash ball at me...so i ducked...didn't notice that stoopid chair that was rite in front of me...and BANG...my poor head....I think Edmund purposely put it there....that idiot...:p...i'll get my revenge 1 day soon...

Ok....running out of things to type...so NITES!

Ryan

Short and Simple

Ok...this will be short and simple....Today a lot of things were going thru my mind....primarily the changing of coaches....Its quite a trying time for me...coz you kinda get used to 1 after a while...

I think God is tryin to move our club in a new direction....There had been some stagnation and loss of team spirit recently....even i felt a little down...Anyways...the sad thing was that today sloke decided to quit....Quite sad...seriously....he actually was like one of the most improved pple.... Oh well...its his choice....Had severe mental block today...cant even fence Chee properly....and got whooped by Barney....Oh well...Too much stuff running thru the head...Sighs...at least i still got Joel and Daniel

All in all...i'm just trusting God to take care of everything...I'm just here for the ride...hopefully tomorrow will bring new surprises and joy...."His mercies are new every morning".....NITES!

Ryan

Yet another Tuesday

Well...today was like any Tuesday....except it was my final lesson at Henry's (At least for the moment).....*Sobs*.

Skool theoratically endd at 2 today, coz James Ong nvr come, so happy free periods. Anyways...i ended up going home at 5 coz my ez-link card had EXACTLY -1 cent on it, and i forgot to put money in my wallet. Thus, had to w8 for my mum which was at 5...Hung around with <>< and edmund after skool a bit, right before they went for dance...Saw edmund break a bit too... looks like hard work....

Well....then went for training....like normal...except had lesser pple...One last thing...I LEFT MY PHONE AND WALLET THERE!!!!AHHHH!!!!!! its like how mafan.....ok....my hand is getiing pain just from typing...NIGHTS!

Ryan

EU Conference

Well, today school was nothing much exciting, except for that EU conference that we attended. Firstly, the EU wants to set up an awareness program in schools.....go figure.....people from ang moh land wants to let us students be more aware of them...especially after we studied their history to such detail....esp GERMANY.

The ride there was quite fun....even though Mary took whatever oppotunities to whack me.....Damn violent sia....Anyways....after we were all seate in the TPJC Audi, and all the Delegates got seated....that stoopid roof started LEAKING... Actually, it was more like a downpour, and it was right above where all the delegates were sitting. This I kid you not: THe leak came from the LIGHTS. At first it was only 1, then it started SPREADING.....lol......Anyways...the talk didnt last very long though......however it was funny to see all the TPJC people who are dressed with blazers and all take cloths and mops to go and clean up the water :P

The ride back was another issue. Mary gave me a sample of her songs...Apparently, the only english songs she has are Christian, and theres like only 2 of them. The rest of them are like Korean or Jap, with some chinese in between. Sighs....Anyways...came back to skool, saw the squash courts lights were on....so i trotted down to go play ^^. Unfortunatly, my parents came too fast so i couldnt play much....

Well... thats another day in the LIfe of Ryan....NIGHTS!

Ryan

P.s. Http://kiwiberries.blogspot.com has NOTHING to do with me...even with the super large coincidence...its prolly some dellusional girl who has a crush on a guy called RYAN...I kid you not...so STOP ASKING ME ABOUT IT!!!

SGX!

Ha....today had that stoopid SGX breifing/training. I tell you, there is not another more useless briefing in the whole wide world. I mean, how much comman sense does it take to know that more risk equals more gains? Oh well, at least the food was good. Good thing <>< and I went out earlier for our extended toilet break ^^. When we came back, just nice the food laid out alrdy...So being ourselves...we decided to help ourselves to them ^^ Not bad i must say, Old Chang Kee,with all the nice local fare. The people there were quite frenly, and quite amused by our antics... I guess office people are still people after all. Im guessing all of their laughing is due to some part of <>< stuffing 3 big puffs under his jacket to make him more pregnant than he alrdy was :D.

Well, the briefing ITSELF was ultra boring, with that stoopid speaker going on and on....gd thing i sat next to Jaime...She's damn fun to be around with...I guess having a daughter like that can't be TOO bad...Btw, she kinda claims that i'm her mum, which i had proven to her (Not literally) that it is a biological impossibility. Well, dear old Jaime is quite good at drawing, so she took the liberty to draw a nice design on my left hand. Quite good i must say. Of course, <>< being the beng he is, wanted her to help him draw a dragon around his arm.... Unfortunately for me, Mary was sitting rite next to me on my right.After see what Jaime did to me, she took the liberty to draw on my RIGHT hand....Man, her grip is like a bear, cant get mt hand out in time...B4 i knew it.. she wrote Ryan <3 Gay Guys...Well... i took my revenge by writing Mary <3 Les girls on HERS...Bad thing is...she didnt seem to mind...

Throughout the whole thing, i couldn't stop laughing. Jaime was the one who was high at first, then i became me....<>< nvr fails to provide a laugh or a million. Well, after the whole thing was done, Tek, Mary, Loon and I trotted down to Vivo to go keikei( I think thats how you spell it). Hmmmsss.....There...i made my SUAN OF THE DAY to Mary...which of course gave her the licence to tao me....Bad thing was..she grabbed my shoe bag and started playing with it at the Vivo pond areas. TEK LA, encourage her until like that. THen she butter fingers once, and DROPPED IT IN. Sighs.....Oh well...at least debt was repaid as of then...

Oh well...that day was super fun...just normal talking cock with good buddies...Sad thing was, G-wen had to go back to Aussie liao, together with Giddy...GOnna miss their nonsense...oh well, theyre comin back in july....so will see them soon...

Well, my mudder making a lot of noise liao...beter let her use the com. NIGHTS!

Ryan

I STILL HATE AC SOCKS!

Second day im wearing them....and i still think their the most digusting thing to ever cross the planet. Who NEEDS school socks, i mean...I wear LONG pants for crying out loud, not as if anyone will see....the only time people will see is when i change to PE attire, and they look positively ATROCIOUS with sports shoes.....I kinda look like some old man with not a drop of fasion sense......I bet any respectable GENTLEMAN would refuse to wear it.

Today training yet again in the stuffy MPH. I hate the floor there, too sticky, cant move properly....makes my actions so awkward. Today was like the first time i didnt go for free fencing after training... Realised not much use sia, fence the same old people every time. They know all my tricks liao, not much fun, then now will lose.....I still dunno how to tell Henry i'm switching coach. The problem is that all 3 of us ( Mich, Ash, and Me) are changing at the SAME TIME, makes it look damn bad sia...Hiaz...hope God can give me the rite words

Sianzzzz.....No mood to do iop sia...and its due on fri.......OH MAN....jean lua irritates people sia.....dont juz tell us to do a 1.5k word analysis in 2 days.... Ok... enough complaining liao...think i will get rite at it.....

Tmr is THURSDAY, the longest day in the week...1 day b4 fri, and they HAD to make it a full day.....oh...prolly will help out the people to bake stuff for the fundraising...will be quite fun...and can steal licks from the pan ^^ Ok....tts all i have to say....blogging is like my squakbox sia...you people who read it really HAVE NO LIFE SIA!!! HAHA!!!!

Ryan

P.s. JAIME!!! GET WELL SOON!!!!AND FASTLY HELP ME DO MY IOP!!!

Tired like Anything

Ok, since today i am SUPER TIRED, i wil hardly write anything here. Nice i reach home at 10, after 1 long day of skool and training, then i have to do that STOOPID TULIPS! Good thing Gerald got his Tulips back, then i could borrow the question paper. Didnt even get it.....

Sianz...today hardly played squash coz firstly, got no one to play with. And secondly, the school team got training, therefore they use all the courts. Hence, i went for the alternative: BASKETBALL!!!! Met <>< too, amazaing timing.

Oh, kids these days....so selfish. Well, i borrowed a racket to play from this guy, Sec 2-3 i think. Then he became like super angry or smth..( I think it has to do with Josh lending it to me) He like put on a super angry, then started swearing beneath his breath, and threw a tantrum. Go figure, this is supposed to be a GENTLEMAN. I don't know what they teach pple in school these days.... Anyways, i prolly dont want to be around when the team trains liao, coz pple so possesive of their stuff....

Ok...its getting late liao....GD NITE!

Ryan

I HATE AC SOCKS!

Ok...today the digusting socks finally arrived. I would have posted a picture of it here, but I was afraid that the sher ugliness of it will crack the camera lens.... Its uber high, and the design is just ROTTEN. I kinda feel sorry for the girls. At least us guys got long pants to cover it up ^^, but they have to show it off... I think we will see a suddeny rise in girls wearing pants from tommorow onwards. I can't believe they made it compulsary for us to buy it, at 10 bucks for 3 pairs. Its a total ripoff.

Today was kinda ok, passed by quite fast. Thats actually kinda weird for a school day. It normally just keeps on dragging on and on....Oh well, this may be the start of more things to come.....Oh, today i saw that Dr. Ong got a new GOLF BUGGY for him to drive around campus.....go figure....Saw it parked right next to his Merc Benz. Its things like this that really makes me wonder.......I can't say out loud, other wise theres a chance i'll get really whacked by the senior admin.....:(

Hiaz, today Gwen got sore eyes man. Thats juz so sad... prolly treat her another day. GET WELL SOON! B4 you go back to Aussie, otherwise will die in the plane....

AHHHHHH, I finally finished by FIRST Econs IA essay.....HORRRAAYYY!!!!! Took me like 1 hour plus plus sia, jsut can't pin down the format. Hopefully it cant actually get a decent grade....

Ok, Im feeling so sleepy....GD NITE

Ryan

SUNDAY!

TODAY IS SUNDAY!!!!HOOORRRAAAAYYYY!!!!! Well, church was great as usual. Today's CE class was on submission to authority.....:s Well, i guess i have to SUBMIT AND OBEY my parents from now on. Worship was AWESOME, with uncle Bill leading. Too bad Rapheal didnt turn up today, i wanted to pass him the shirt.

Ok, today had training with the cheena coach again. Sweated a lot as usual, learnt a thing or two, and of course had everyone starting at me while :s Oh, after that went to dinner with my parents at VALENTINOS! Great Italain food, with great wine. Oh, after that the owner gave us some GRAPPA for being so honest about the bill. Man, Grappa ROX. It basically has the same kick as vodka but no disgusting super glue taste. I dont mind having another shot or 2 :p

And JAIMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEE, I THOUGHT ur lit very good ONE!!!!!!!! I suppose the stuff African Poets write dont make sense

I PASSED MY NAPFA!!

Well, today's title kinda speak for itself...Whats so great a deal you ask? Heh, here's the history of my nafta record. Since sec 1 till sec 2, yours truly managed to get mostly 3As, 2 Bs, and a FAIL. Whats this station? its that stopid STANDING BOARD JUMP. I just CANT jump to save my life. Queer thing for a basketball player too....oh Well......

Anyways, back to today. i jumped....to 215 CM!!! its like ACHIEVEMENT! hmmms...mayb if i push it up to C, and do 1 more chin-up, i actually can get GOLD! THEN can have LESSER NS!

Oh, other than that, today i actually picked up SQUASH! its like FUN, Second to fencing and on par with playing bball....thats how high i rank it. Learnt it from Lucy(Lucius for the people who dont know) in like 20 min, then off we went. Good thing was, i can beat Mary, budden thats not such a great achievement.( I think her pychomotor skills still needs some work) I prolly will start will squash with the rest of the people during recess. It will be like sec 1 all over again, except this time its squash, not bball....

Ok, its time to go to sleep, and Jaime will prolly annotate my IOP finish by tmr ^^. NITES

Ryan

Council Elections

Well, today was voting day for the 2nd council elections. Well, I have to say, IT WAS BORING. I MEAN, after ALL that campaigning, there wasn't even a last-ditch effort to garner more vots. Oh well, i managed to vote the pple i wanted to vote. The thing was, i was kinda saddened that some pple only their friends. Even I have to admit, some of my choices were because i knew the person personally. People also tend to negative vote candidates just because they " Don't like his face", or because they think hes not "cool" enough. I mean, these kind of candidates are actuallly the best people for the job, cause they have the right heart, and can actually contribute meaningfully to the school. On the other hand, there are some people who juz want to get into council for the prestige, and of course the boasting rights. Theres no heart of service, and thats what the 2nd most important thing. Of course, since im a Christian, I feel that having the hear for God is the MOST importnat thing when running for council, thats my FIRST criteria when im voting. Prolly coz things kinda falls in place when a person is really chasing after God, no matter how scrooed up they are (heheh jelon :P).

Ok, thats my 4 cents worth for the day. Oh, i also FINALLY manged to install CnC 3 on my com, can't wait to play it tmr ^^.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Today, Jaime, Gerald and I went to KAP,and guess what we found.......YES! KIWIBERRIES!!!! Even though they were a tad expensive( 5.20), it was worth it. Ha, we talk cock for the whole 2 hours, n we hardly got any work done lol. Havent talked with Gerald like this for a LONG time. Anyways, I even saw my parents at the Cold Storage downstairs, and they were nice enough to buy me another packet of kiwiberries ^^. Man, its gd to have your folks around.

Ok...training was ok, if not a little boring and basic. Finally saw Michelle and Ashykin fence today lol....Quite entertaining, but they got a long way to go, and so do I. Thinking about it, i realised that there must be some reason for me taking up fencing. I mean, this was just some random out of the blue impulse i had when i went up to sign of last year. The thought of fencing never even cross my mind before i joined. God prolly got some BIG BIG plan for me in fencing, coz this passion is quite beyond me. I'll just pray and see what He has in store for me. Oh, anyone who reads this, pray that God will help me make the decision of whether to change coach, and if i am, help me to phrase it nicely so as to not hurt Henry's feelings.

Ohwell, enough of today, im tired, and theres still training tmr. GD NITE, and GOD BLESS!.

P.s. Gwen, the bracelet is SERIOUSLY lopsided.

Monday, April 9, 2007

After spending half the night on the stoopid CHEM REPORT 5, i finally got bored enough to start typing on this blog....hmmmssssss...i starting to get a bit sian of this liao

Chem Prac was quite fun, although i dont know why, we actually did that stoopid experiment 5 times, and i was the one measuring the mass, not an easy job.

Anyways...today was a SUPER EMBARASSING DAY LA.....i always wanted to whack that indian teacher. Good thing God helped me hold back my temper. After skool, Lucas helped me to see that it was actually MY FAULT that i was scolded......amazing how God works rite? I dont see anyone who will laugh, but only one who i knew from eons ago, to help me see my mistakes. Amazing....I still dont know about tmr though, think will get my share of laughs....but oh well.....i got to live with the consequences. Oh....Joel...Sorry about ur book...i'll return it tmr.....PROMISE!

Ok...School was nvr that exciting....nothin much to talk about.....except Gwen altered the bracelet wrongly ( Thx anyways). Ok...Im signing out

Ryan

Easter Sunday!

Firstly, its EASTER SUNDAY!!!! THE DAY OF THE RESURRECTION!!!!!! Heh... once again, I was reminded of the Ultimate Sacrifice, and of course the significance of it all. Loved the worship, Sandra of course was a super powerhouse when it came to singing.

Oh Before talkin about today, let me tell you why Lintong will make the perfect wife :p:

1. She sews
2. She cooks ( I think, but don't know how well)
3. She's a perfectonist so she will clean
4. She makes her own clothes so you won't have to buy them for her
5. She has no social life so you won't have to spend too much money

( This whole list was from Joel Tay, and Tong was chasing him around trying to whack him with an umbrella after he told me that ^^)

Anyways...back to today...Gwen came back, and it was Mei Fang's B'dae, so we all trotted down to celebrate. It was great fun, even though Daniel forgot that Newton hawker centre doesn't open in the afternoon. We talk a lot of cock, then went to Tcc to cut cake. Ha, that stoopid waiter told us that next time, we hafta order a cake from there if we wanted to cut. Oh, today MEI YANG WAS HOW DEAD LA. It just even the same without a hyper Yang. Hiaz....maybe next time we go out she will get that life back...oh well..... Anyways...Sunshine is a damn EMO show sia, in the end everyone all die. Then got some retarded slasher part about this captain that went crazy or smth, then killed people coz he wanted the sun to die.....go figure.

Good Friday!

Man......Good Friday..... its like D-Day, except much more important.

Basically, i practically wasted the entire day on the com lol. This of course is not a good sign. Anyways, it was practically super boring until i went for the night service/ evangilical meet. Man, was i reminded of the Greatest Love. Props to the deco people, coming with the receipt concept. The night held lots of surprises. Firstly, Chun sang the song item. Boy, hes like angelic when he sings man.

Secondly, i saw Nana in a SKIRT! I was like ZOMG! FIRST TIME EVER. Compared to the jeans look, this is like ZOMG. Yep, strange things come when you least expect it. Heh, of course i talk cock with my dearest cousin, and hear all the crap he had to say :p.

Anyways, back to serious stuff. I cant begin to describe to you how much God touched my tonight. It wasnt just some nice fancy Clip from the "Gospel Of John" that they showed. This was actually a real event that happened more than 2000 years ago. I was constantly reminded by God that I was why he came down to earth. And yep, theres just that major price issue, in blood of course. Throughout the course of the day, i had this nagging feeling in my heart to sing out this song. Its called Daddy Why by Nicole Nordeman. Basically, the last 2 verses goes like this:

Father why are they screaming,
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are some of them casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurt me more than it shows.
Father please, Can't You do something,
I know that You must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle the cross of this size.
Father remind me why,
Why does everyone want me to die,
When will i understand why?


My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watchning th face of the Enemy beaming
But soon i will clothe You in robes of my own.
Jesus this hurts me much more than You know.
But in this dark hour I must do nothing,
Even though i hear you unbearable cries.
The Power in Your blood destroys all of the lies,
Soon You will see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look there below see the child trembling by her father's side.
Now i can tell you why,
She is WHY YOU MUST DIE.

That child could have been anyone, but He would still die for you. Thank you Jesus

Love, Ryan

FIRST POST!

Well.......this was an entirely random thing i created due to extreme boredom and the previewing of Edmund's blog.( I guess its inspirational :p) Oh well, i guess this is more useful than just playing Dota with random people.

Im sure all of you guys are wondering what are KIWIBERRIES! Firstly, let me just say that it is THE most DELICIOUS fruit you will ever taste. Imagine cherry tomatoes with the taste of Kiwi.... im considerably drooling at just the thought of it; its like solid nectar from heaven!

Oh well....enough of that fruit, on with my day. Man, today was a damn funny day sia, not counting the LSY Speaker thing. We played ball after school. Due to the Sudden expansion of the basketball team, both courts were used up. Therefore, Tek, Mary, Shao Yi and I had to walk all the way to Loons house, to pick up <>< ( that idiot) and the ball, then walk ALL the way to dover court. I tell you, that <>< ate more of my ice cream than me.

Anyways, the most hilarious part was when we actually started playing. Since my fencing is orientated to my left, i had to orientate back to my right to play properly. Of course, this juz means more air-balls. OK. Here was the CHAIN OF UNFORNUATE EVENTS. When Shao was dribbling out, i smacked the ball, which hit his face ( quite gently actually). <>< of course, had to kick me for "injuring" his teammate. Well, my natural reaciton was to land a good one on his rear, but he managed to dodge it backwards, kicking Tek's ankle in the process........ Get the picture? Well, after that, all of us were rolling about on the fall, and the only one un hurt was Mary! Girls get away with lots of stuff.....

Anyways, thats most of the interesting stuff, life is never boring with my frens around ^^. Oh, im still fighting the good fight, and keeping the faith. It issint easy, but im sure God will see me through all the days of my life.

FIRST POST DONE!