Kiwiberries

If love had a price, I would glady pay.

2010-03-20T07:57:00.001-07:00

Dead inside. Crushing loneliness. Thats my current emotional situation. Nothing seems so excite anymore. Even the music has lost most of its feeling, if not all. My life is just going doing my job, F'ing recruits. However, what hurts the most is that my weekends seem to have no one. Not a single person i can rely on to go out with, or while away the time. Everyone has drifted apart. Not surprising, considering it has already been one year since school ended.
Everyone left in Singapore is getting more screwed up. Lucy is long gone, and so is ads. Vic is still trying to fill up that gap in her heart. We are so alike, yet different. Wes said that he had no idea why we were friends in the first place, seeing that we are so different. However what i think that even though we have not really much comman topic to talk about, are feelings are basically the same. Thats why we keep on going back to that topic of feelings and relationships. Other than that, I really don't think that we have anything else in comman.
Thats why I'm trying to avoid her. Just break all contact, just like Jaime. She obviously is doing fine with her life at the moment, friends and all. Never even called me once to go out. This is why I'm feeling like shit now. We are supposed to be like good friends, but not one of my "good friends" ever bothered to ask me to go out. Just once it would be nice for someone to call you to go out and catch a show or something to that extent. I'm even fine with just chilling out. No one, not a single soul even bothers to ask how I'm doing.

Can't you hear my silent cries?

My tears that I shed as I wait for people who are never going to come. No one bothers to buy me a present for my birthday, or christmas for that matter. Not even my parents. Just once, it would be nice if someone bothered to put in the effort to do something special. Not for anything, but because of love, or even friendship. At most, its only stupid fb birthday wishes.

I'm not sure if you call this emoing, or even depression, but the feelings of lonliness seems too much to bear. It just seems so much. I'd rather spend my time chongswa. I hate weekends. Its the time when you dont have anyone. YOU THINK I LIKE SPENDING MY TIME AT THE COMPUTER MOM? Its just i have no one to go out with. Everyone is so busy with their own things that they can just overlook.

You know, I've forgotten what it feels like to be alive for so long. To laugh clearly and loudly and so carefree. Everything seems so have some dark cloud hanging. I JUST NEED A GIRLFRIEND. Call me selfish, say that its all for the wrong reasons, BUT DO YOU KNOW MY PAIN? The pain of no one caring about you. No one calling. Waiting for an invitation that is never going to come. The pain of loneliness. Just once, I would like to take off my mask. To say I'm tired. To share my burden. To stop pretending I'm always happy. To lean on someone, instead of being the leanee. Is such a thing too much to ask for? To hell with wealth, popularity, status whatever. All i need is one person; Why do You begrudge me of this God? You always say that you have your own timing, that you have enough. So how come even though when i was faithful i still felt lonely. Now when my life, my faith, my walk is all screwed up, aren't you coming to save me?? YOU SAID YOU CARED RIGHT? I MATTERED? I'M NOT JUST ONE OF THE BILLIONS? Its a saturday, and no one messaged or called the whole day. DO YOU KNOW HOW SHIT I FEEL RIGHT NOW?

Like speed said. WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP LEAVING? Its the feeling of abandonedment. I just need someone i can unburden on. Someone who won't turn away. Someone who loves me just as much as I'm going to love her. IS THIS TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR GOD? ITS BEEN 20 years already. WHY???

Yeah i figured since no one actually bothers to read. Its just i dont know. No matter how hard i try its so difficult for me to make real friends. And just when i thought i did, we all just drifted. He doesnt even bother sharing with me his problems already. And i thought we were bro's. If you are reading this, no I am not going to commit suicide. I'm just really really really sad. Anyone, save me from this hell of being alone.

Nites

Gotta Be Somebody

2009-05-22T18:40:00.000-07:00

Nickelback - Gotta Be Somebody

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing, I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I'll be holding my breath, right up 'til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it's just like déja vu
Me standing here with you
So I'll be holding my breath, could this be the end?
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I'll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

You can't give up, (when you're looking for) a diamond in the rough (cause you never know)
When it shows up, (make sure you're holding on)
Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me, oh

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Man these guys are geniuses. One of the few songs that have good lyrics, and they actually are quite witty, like whoa, it never occured to me that this word can rhyme with this word before.

Nights

A Beautiful Mess

2009-04-12T05:32:00.000-07:00

Lol. Haven't posted since forever. But then again, i didnt really have a cause to until now. And since its off my msn nick, i dont suppose people will actually bother reading it =) Its only something i like to do when i really have nothing else left to do.

Another episode, or should i say a previous episode has been closed, and im quite quite quite sure this time that it is for good. No hard feelings yeah. Your loss. You know, this is so God behind the scenes. Trails and tribulations alright, pushed me wayyy beyond my limits, limits i never thought to cross, limits i never knew existed. People i can always count on, or at least person ( the absolute bare minimum). Brokeness, i didnt really know the meaning of the word until now. Spiritually, emotionally. To build, you first need to tear down all the messed up parts of my life. Slowly, I'm getting on track. The anger is gone, the pride is somewhat gone, but I think its kinda coming back =/ What doesn't kill you really does make you stronger. But i must say, even though i kinda survived this trail, for a while i never knew whether i would make it. He really doesn't test you more than you can handle, but He's worse than Sgt Charles, way tougher, but with much love. Much much love. "If I can die for you on the cross, and come back to life, what makes you think I cant set all my much more minor plans into motion?" Things i sense Him saying to me. I'm not very good at these sorta things, but its just something i somehow sense.

Scarily, I'm looking forward to going back in. These short weekends are really just some torture. You keep on trying to fill them up because you believe that it will be wasted otherwise. Many go clubbing, cause its the fastest way to fun. But its so superficial man, and thankfully my head cleared up. In camp, there will always be people 24/7. Single child syndrome, its the lonliness that kills you at home. But I'm really glad i spent the easter weekend mostly by myself, just enjoying the break. Its how you grow stronger.

Oh crap/yay. Book in day.

Nights

Prelims - 1 week's time

2008-08-29T22:26:00.000-07:00

ARGHHHHH. So close, but i'm already tired of studying. Econs, hist, math, chem, english....theres so much to study for each!!!! Oh wells... at least i'll be much more prepared than mid years...

Studying makes you fat. Period. so much junk food goes into your system to keep you awake, and it goes straight to your belly. Just as Jin.

I need a holiday. To anywhere. With anyone. Do anything. A change of scenery. Set off on a new chase. See a new face.

Europe sounds good. An exchange program in Europe. Orchard is so boring. Its the people who keeps Singapore interesting more than anything else.

1 month's time, then I'll be free. Hang in there. Do you best. Go mug your books. I'll start tonight. No regrets. I want to travel the world guilt-free. Know i did my best. Be a Jacob, not at Esau. If I'm going to get a job, might as well get one that pays well. Get an adreneline rush. 3 days till i fence again. Don't spoil my enjoyment mum and dad. 1 night of all out, with that same high i'm addicted to. 3 more days. Till then, forget social life, forget friends, 1 month's worth of books and notes. Its just you, me, and my medication.

Nites

Everyone Pretends to be normal

2008-07-10T05:45:00.000-07:00

The faceless normal. The curve with mean 0 and standard deviation 1. the cumalation of all that is un and in different. I actually was thinking about it today. amazingly, i realized that all my friends and the people i know are all weird in one way or the other. Vic has her abnormal clumsiness, <>< has his abnormal cockness, Denise has her abnormal properness, Gwen has her abnormal cheenaness, Jess has her abnormal best friends, the like of which includes hitler and stalin, Eryn has her abnormal outbursts, Alyssha has her abnormal bossiness for someone so small, Wes is just.....Wes, jaime has her abnormal manliness, come to think of it so does denise =p...Barney has his abnormal laziness, and so does Lionel, Tee has his abnormal obsession with online games, Lucy has his abnormal

Well yeah, you DO get the point don't you...

Nites

Mugger Mode Activated

2008-07-08T05:58:00.000-07:00

Well the nice break, though it was short, after the exams is over. Right now, theres only that stoopid thing called the prelims and final ib exams left....THUS!!! Mugger Mode has been activated, due to overwhelming demand from my parents.

Speaking of overwhelming demand, Char demanded that i blog about our little date =/ Well it all went well, was super cool seeing her and her loudspeaker mouth and all...and it was all going nicely until we went to MODESTOS!!! Bloody, i thought that place was super nice, considering the amount of time i went there. Well since according to her she hates most seafood, she ordered this pasta stuffed with like his strange mix of minced beef, chicken and pork. Go figure why they wanna go that. ANYWAYS, the worst part was the the meat was sandy AND UNCOOKED... i mean WTH! This was minced pork and chicken we were talking about, YOU DONT EAT IT RAW, unless youre daryl ho, but thats another story. Well, when we complained and wanted a refund, they said that their policy was the everything was supposedly "ITALIAN" and therefore al dente. Well needless to say we really couldnt be bothered to do anything about it. BUT SERIOUSLY, eating raw meat is freakin digusting. Beef served medium - medium rare is quite good actually, BUT PORK AND CHICKEN??????????????????????????

Yeah, that was like the worst part of it. Then just nice Vic, tay and moo cancelled their drinking session, so we didnt go join them. ha, you wont believe it, we met HUISHAN AND SAM at that vivo lol. For those who dont know, those 2 are our pri school classmates who hooked up last year, and yes, we were all from the same p6 class. Well it was damn funny coz we just chatted after that. SAm talks A LOT MORE now, must be shan's influence =) They seriously are opposite ends of the spectrum. Well opposites attract dont they....Thats basically what happened. Fun and digusting night....

Well back to spamming math and redoing IAs =/ I just decided to write some because reviving a blog is seriously hard work, but i think if i put in a BIT, it shld be much better!

Nites

English! And sticky chewy chocolate...

2008-06-26T04:28:00.000-07:00

Finally the 2 killer days are over!!!! i can finally relax and go back to normal mode mugging....

Went out with Vic, Jaime and Moo today. I think these guys are like my new gang =/ Can't seem to tire of hanging out with this crazy bunch of people. You got Jai-ME and moo ~~making out in a corner~~ talking between themselves, then Vic and I would just talk about the weather.

For some reason today, Moo wanted to go eat tao hui, dont ask me why =/ But yeah ,we went down to Bugis with him, and just nice that stoopid place was under renovation =( So what to do? Swenson!!! Wonderful place with the student deals ^^ 2 Sundaes for 10 bucks. Yes fish, we can go there next time if you like. Anyways yeah, these crazy guys, esp Vic, would prolly be the people i'm gonna go crazy with this year...

Anyways, to the good stuff! English today was my masterpiece in bsing. 5 whole sides about 2 out 3 books, 2 of which i have not finished reading... Times as adhir would put it....

Hmmmsss, anyone got onerepublic songs stuck in their heads??? I mean, its the kind of melody that i love, but theres this factor that keeps the song replaying over and over in my head =/ Note: the lyrics are quite intriguing, esp if you try to analyse them lit style... Its not even a love song!! But the feelings that it invokes are about the same....Weird right? thats what IB does to your life...

Say (All I Need) - oneRepublic

Do you know where your heart is
Do you think you can find it
Did you trade it for something, somewhere
Better just to have it

Do you know where your love is
Do you think that you've lost it
You felt it so strong but nothings
Turned out how you wanted

Well bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well all I need
Is the air i breathe
And a place to rest my head

Do you know what your fate is
Are you trying to shake
You're doing your best dance, best look
Praying that you'll make it

Well bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well all i need
Is the air i breathe
And a place to rest my head
Say all i need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head

Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Better than you have it
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Do you think you can find it
Better than you have it

Say all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head
Say all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest my head

Do you know where the end is
Do you think you can see it
Until you get there
Go on
Go ahead and scream it
Just say

Haha, PROFOUND RIGHT! Notice the use of repitition by the ~~Poet~~ Song writer. It emphasizes the fact of blah blah blah. But yeah, this stoopid song got stuck right after i saw Edmund's choreo on it. Stoopid boy, i actually got visual representation of it now. Its gonna stay there forever.....And no, i do not like you being replayed over and over in my mind

Nites

2008-06-25T06:36:00.000-07:00

Bloody, since when do i get HIVES???? FREAKIN HIVES???? I have no idea how people stand it...not the itchy part, but IT LOOKS FREAKIN DISGUSTING!!!!!! I mean...YUCKS!!! I can't even stand looking at my arms =/

The worst part is that i was supposed to go chiong econs and siddhartha tonight, but this is quite the distracting....

Switchfoot - On Fire

You're the hope i have for change
You're the only chance I'll take

I'm on fire when You're near me
I'm on fire when You speak
I'm on fire burning at these mysterious

you kill yourself for recognition
you kill yourself to never ever stop
you broke another mirror
you're turning into something you are not

I'm standing on the edge of everything I've never been before.

Nothing like a sudden total attack of hives to bring one's perspectives back on the right track. Thank you God....even if it does look super disgusting

Nites

Update... After ??? months

2008-06-23T04:52:00.001-07:00

Due to overwhelming demand and a perfectly inelastic demand curve at 0, I decided to actually increase supply to 1 for the sake of people, esp adee and bert =/

Hols was freakin crazy, non-existant revision, ultra intense rehearsals, and the final week of studying/ hanging out.... The thing at Fort Canning was fun lol, and the night out even better ^^. Of course being freakin tired means being stoned.

As said, History is boring to study, esp Stalin. And since the notes are with Mary who simply refuses to lend it to me today....I just have to go school earli tmr to get it =(

Oh sorry guys really didnt feel like going to town to study. (vic i'll tell you the reason another time).

SToopid prose was about some crazy guy who needed counselling, HISTORY TOMORROW!!!!

Man im not making sense, must be the cult of Stalin =/ Anyways eh CHAR! Hurry fix a date la!!! You prolly wont be bothered to come see this, but we need to start planning that stoopid gathering!!!

Ryan

Strength for another Day

2008-01-30T05:38:00.000-08:00

Some times i wonder, what does it mean to do all this work, when the end result is always not the one i want. Its like you feel alone in a sea of people and tonnes of frens, but not one hits the right notes, not one makes you feel any meaning in life.

Times like this, theres something that always fall into place. i call it God's provision, other people call it karma, Siddartha the gay is just gay. When things look entirely boring, theres always smth that perks up you life. God's word, or just smth ENTIRELY random that you google on the net. Like right before this. I left my stoopid lit book at shayee's house, thus making world lit entirely impossible to do.

When the end of the horizon is right before your eyes, and there is nothing in this current life, when you are just waiting for a new era to begin, theres always something to give you strength; enough for another day. I like this verse:

Sometimes stretching that little bit furthur just isn't enough. and you know that you've got to take that risk and jump over the edge.even though you have no idea what lies beyond or below. That's when you let go of your inhibitions.

Once again, <>< you amaze me:

<>< says:
oooh
<>< says:
i just thought of this great game to play
{Ryan} -kiwiberies.blogspot.com says:
...?
<>< says:
we all take laxatives...then the last person to crap wins
{Ryan} -kiwiberies.blogspot.com says:
...
<>< says:
of course everyone has to contribute 2 dollars to the pot
<>< says:
then got incentive
<>< says:
its a fun and yet cheap way to kill time

Random? Incoherent?No flow? Welcome to my world.

Nights

BLOG REVIVED!

2008-01-23T05:35:00.000-08:00

haha....after at least a 4 months break, i actually am bored enough to blog about ANYTHING at the moment, all thanks to the stoopid econs test i'm studying for. No matter how much or how well prepared i am, it is never enough for me to do well.

Tok,EE,world lit assignment, commentary, Econs IAs( I seriously have to like redo almost everything coz i just realised my Ias seriously look like crap), and i finally finished the draft for hist Ia...the pressure is killing me sia....oh wells...i got loads of things to look forward to in the coming day....

The funny thing is, theres always some obstacle in every competition i participate it.....Imagine this... i won ALL my round robins...and i end up with only a seed 8... thats how imba the comp is....And there were like 80 people for novices....sabre had like 20+ la....Oh...and i HAD to go against number 1 in the Quaters...sia la... oh wells...Oh Dan, sorri for losing it during the comp, youre still the best man....Present day...GOOD NEWS! I'm beginning to see God working thru the fencing club...its starting soon...i cant say what it is for now...but i SERIOUSLY think like i heard the right calling...and who knew that it could be so fun ^^

haha...if you are wondering...the reason why im blogging is coz theres nth left to do on facebook.....and tee still havent passed me the cd key....haha

BRB!

Thats that

2007-09-22T07:48:00.000-07:00

Well, its been quite an episode, but this time, i really decided to let go...
It has been one of the more painful things to do,....but it must be done...

Focus on what is ahead(which is on Christ) rather than what is present......will make this journey much easier - Thanks Eucky

Still, theres always this nagging feeling in the back of my head, the part which wont give up...it might take 1 day to go away, or maybe a week, or mayb forever, but right now, theres so many much more important things to worry about, and this is not the time to waste on this nonsense.

"If you have faith the size of a musturd seed, you can tell this mountain to 'throw youself into the river' and it will be done" This is my mountain, and right now, it can go throw itself into the river. And hopefully, it will stay there.

Nites

Sep 19

2007-09-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

I thought i could give it up...
And i did..
but it keeps on coming back
This hole in my heart, this stupid feeling
can't believe i just shackled myself again

And i know that its my fault
That I can't feel Him as near as before
But it was my own choice, my own willfulness
i thought i was strong enough
And all i can go now is ask for forgiveness

But theres still so many obstacles

Tuesday, Sept 11

2007-09-11T05:43:00.000-07:00

Somebody hopes that someday you'll see

That Somebody's me

Weird

2007-08-27T06:22:00.000-07:00

Huh....right now...it seems like my whole body is aching over...and since exams are starting in 5 weeks time....i SHLD be getting down to studying...but...there is proof that studying makes you fail. Of course, we must have assumptions.

Study = No fail
No study = fail
Study + no study = no fail + fail
(no + 1)Study = (no + 1)Fail
Study = Fail

Anyways...these few days have been ultra weird for me......seem so torn...anyways....study breaks over...so gotta get back to "work"

Jaime's Birthday!

2007-08-16T06:18:00.000-07:00

Ha....this is what people call a long overdue post....and SINCE my first draft i dunno got saved until where..and got deleted......i'll make this ultra short ^^..

Anyways...last friday we had the hols (duh)... so might as well celebrate for her lol....poor girl...shld celebrate more often....anyways....to cut things short...my mudder was nice enough to cook lunch for us...after that we went to NSK's house to swim and basically have fun... and since VIC STILL HASNT SENT ME THE PHOTOS.... i dont really have much to show =p.... too bad like after 2-3 hours after that the security gaurds chased us out...because some idiotic resident doesnt understand that board-shorts actually ARE meant to swim in, and complained -.-....

After that we just bathed and met again...we just went for dinner after that...sicne i REALLY hate fast-food...we ended up at han's for dinner..... heh..... then dunno HOW it happened....we ended up taking NEOPRINTS...-.-.....amazing...the power of vics and mary combined....oh well...since it was such a novelty for me......and the air inside was SO pinkish....we all just piled up to take a candid...

well....i think thats like the second time i took this kinda lian stuff....and amazinly....both times were all VICs idea.....anyways...after that we all our super tired liao....and went to sleep...

Fast forward today....english class was a super joke...i leave you a qoute from my teacher "I am not a nymphomanic"...^^ Anyways....nites

Ryan

Weekends

2007-07-30T04:22:00.000-07:00

Well...since the stoopid com crashed and totally wiped out this post while iw as typing halfway...i'll keep it short because it got totally sian...

Anyways..last fri i went to go watch FOA dramanite...only because gerald was acting lol...met <><, tek, gen and jaime at KAP, had dinner...then went back to skooll....met up with Vic, toh, and Kelvin aka NSK =p...anyways,...we went in...first act was quite ok...second act became quite a drag... thrid act...GERALD!!! he was damn funny...because he wore like platform shoes....compared to like MK...he was practically 1 head taller lol.....anyways...the play ended....so i SUDDENLY rmbed another reason why i was there lol....BARNES!!! ha...found out that he was bringing his gf to come watch...so i HAD to say hi ^^....ha...finally found him...and she looked quite pretty lol...gd choice Barnes....anyways...after that i decided not to embarrass him out of my own kind heaert and left th 2 love birds alone... After taht we went for supper..because gerald took AGES to take off his make up..we ended up leaving the skool at 10 lol....and ended up at harbourfront...and SINCE it was sooo late..we ende up at macs AGAIN... lol... quite fun talking cock...oh...and i think that was like my first time talking to vic.... shes quite a nice girl....totally opposite of jaime lol =p...

Next day...had to wake up EARLI for fencing...ha...training was GREAT....since the coaches were back...i seriously trained damn hard....could see my sweat all over the place lol...and the rest of the teams ^^....ha..also..there were like NO GIRLS this training...so i think this allowed us to increase the pace lol...Anyways..after training went home...did some tok..then went for youth...ha... worship was great as usual...even though that stoopid LINTONG made me take over her duty...tsk tsk...being late is BAD FORM...^^... anyways...after that since uncle thinyin wasnt arnd...and dan was comin...only like me and rui jie left....and then rui jie had to go home for some reason....then only got me left =(...i was about to enjoy this slackness....when suddenly, after finding out that i had no class, cheryl asked me to join her class lol.....basket...then Juli and jess(j &j =p) joined in....stoopid tong never stood up for me...anyways...in the end..i gave in because of a subway cookie....man those girls are scheming...so off i landed up there....ha..class was quite fun...didnt have that kind class for quite some time...our class was like sooo much more cheem ( no offense)...Uncle thinyin REALLY makes you study INDEPT...like literature analysis indept....

Sunday...not much interesting happened.... went to church arnd 9.30...talk cock at the youth room...started suaning tong all over again..... learnt some guitar...had a great service..."resolving conflicts" lol....marraige series...great for pple of all ages....went out for lunch and one arm again....then went home...

And so i ended up with today....actually... today i suddenly had some urge to do some composing....i actually got some tune to the lyrics...budden i can seem to pen it out on paper...anyways...the lyrics go like this

Wherever you go,
Wherever you are,
I'll always be there to guide you near or far.
Whenever you're sad,
Whenever you're blue,
I'll always be there to comfort you.

Your an angel shinging bright.
Your the magic in my life.
I'll be with you love of mine,
till the end of time.

Ha...COOL RIGHT!!...anyways...the lyrics are not 100% original...some parts were taken from this old old song from some cartoon that i loved when i was younger....it is still so vivid in my mind because it affected me soooo much....anyways....i think thats about all i have to say...NITES

RYan

Something Different

2007-07-11T07:19:00.000-07:00

Well...instead of this just being some normal post, i'm trying to use this to kinda sort out my thoughts....coz right now i dont really know what i should be feeling...

Bout a week ago...i think i kinda hurt a fren of mine....of course being me...i didnt notice that i was even hurting that fren. i guess this is what they call the only child syndrome, where you dont notice things around you....well....this kinda sucks....coz our relationship is kinda strained at the moment...and everytime i see that person i kinda feel that i shld have never said those things....

Well....i guess that i shld REALLY go apologize....the thing is...i dont even KNOW whether it was because of what i said...even though i have quite a gd idea...its not 100%. yeah....and i cant even find an opportunity to...its quite hard to do this sorta thing.....coz we were once great frens....

i guess the only thing left for me to do is to fix it...it really is affecting my spiritual life....this is kinda "if one brother holds a grudge against you, leave your offering there, go make peace with him, and then give your offering to the lord kind of situation"....

Well...thats all for this post....nites...

Christians: More than meets the eye

2007-06-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

Well... since i havent updated this blog for soooooo long...i'll start with what happened yesterday ^^...

FRIDAY!!! the day after my exams finished....man...you won't BELIEVE how God helped me throughout the exams...and its FINALLY OVER!!!...Well...at the start...my plans were all mixed up...anyways...in the end...i went ice skaeting for the first time....The people who went were...um....Edmund, Yuan Hao, Audrey, and WESLEY!!! Ha... funny thing was...the moment i reached JEC, i saw Asykin and Bobbie...so i went to have breakfast with them first....apparently, the came straight after the bnm paper....so i was wondering why the rest of the group took so long....yeah... so after i talk cock with them i bit...then the rest came....

Well..the funny thing was that right after that...Wesley started talkin to edmund an Yuan Hao about Christian stuff...i guess he was questioning about the whole fairness thing...Well...lets just say that God has his choice...and hes alrdy unfair in that WE are already FORGIVEN even though we did not deserve it...THAT is undair...

Well...after buying the tix for transformers ( Note the title), we went to ICE SKATE!!! ha... the thing was...i was dressed to go PLAY BASKETBALL!.... so...i entered that freezing cold ring with like PE shorts and dri fit shirt...so of course i was shivering....For all you who dont know..this is my first time ice skating...so after i "suited" up, i went in...heh....the first round i was so nervous sia...budden as i went like on my 2nd and 3rd round....i realised its a lot like rollar blading...so i managed to pick it up super fast...ha....ice skating was A BLAST!!!... heh..even learned how to stop properly....but then it took a few falls for me to get it correct...Oh well....i almost learnt how to move backwards too... Man...then ran into some other bunch of pple from our skool....Oh...b4 that...there was this like young girl in the ring who was like clinging on to us....funny thing was... we didnt even know her lol...and then she was like hugging everyone... ha...we had so much fun with her around.....

Well...after that...we chiong to go watch transformers....ha....SUPER good show sia.... the CG scenes rock my low socks....and i WANT A CAR LIKE BUMBLEBEE!!!! Hes how cool la.... can transfrom into any car model you want....heh...after that i had to chiong home for Cell group dinner....my mudder cooked up a feast yet again....this was friday....

Sat morning started out with me waking up at 9...the supposed time i was supposed to meet her at skool ^^....so i hurried and bathe...good thing my mudder was around to fetch me tehre...so i wasnt too late...so we both went to the AC barker carnival today...Apparently, she had like 40 bucks worth of free tix from alister chew who bought like a ton of tix and distributed to the girls in our skool....lucky girls... Anyways...we met Yuan hao there...and the morning was spent looking around and buying all the nice food lol...man it was fun..and the bands performing was not bad lol....espcially the band with the bassist whose voice sounds like Sting...

After that Yuan hao had to go...so only me and Audrey left to kill some time before i had to go to church....ha....so off we went to go Plaza Sing...i even taught her to play bang bang lol...super fun....after that....i went to church...

Well...today's service was more than usual...Thing was...when i first went in...i didnt really feel like worshiping..because i was so far away from God for the whole week...However...He always has a way to bring me back to Him...and this way was in the form of GIDEON!!! ha..the joker came back from Australia yesterday...and he didnt tell anyone...Well.... i was surprsied to see him lol....and boy he had changed a lot...haha...other than the fact that he becamse increasingly metro...he also matured quite a bit...and i think he learnt a few things when he was at Australia...Well..the moment worship started...he started jumping around and praising God with all his heart...i guessed that really woke me up...its like "Wheres MY passion? It was there before...but it dissapeared...i drifted so far from God...can i really just come back and worship him?"...Well... when the next song started.....God just let me know that i could...and am always welcome back... and that the forgiveness and grace i received was enough to bring me back...and thus.. that worship was one of the best i had in a very long time.....

After the worship... for some reason...i went to do the rap/announcement with Ben..ha...was super funny lol....and we both looked like retards....anyways...we had class after that... and so Uncle Thin Yin showed us the photos he took when he went to East Timor, and the powerpoint...man..he really did a lot of work there....After class...we were meeting at the carpark there...and then to cut the long story short...only me and Gid were left...so we just decided to go to "one arm"(Doesnt it sound like this?) for dinner....heh... havent talked to this guy for ages... and i kinda missed the chicken there...so yeah..we went..and then we just started talking...well...in the end...we ended up talking about the most prevalent thing in our church: Cliques...I'm not judging anyone about this, but i honestly believe that it is this single problem that is preventing us from reaching out to the rest of our friends....I just didn't notice it until know.....Well...we just like talked and talked about it...and then i had this idea, why dont we just go pray about it now?..So off we went back to church...took the guitar...and me and Gid just started worshiping a praying...Man...we just prayed for the youth and the church....God's presence was just so powerful amongst us...and we just prayed and prayed...i feel that this will lead us to a new revival among us...not just a temporary one...but one that will revolutionise our youth...and God let Gid come back a few days earlier than expected just for this...Its amazin how God just brings people together according to the need...we broke quite a few strongholds tonite ^^....

Well...that is the most i have so far...i hope that whoever is reading this....just try to get out of your comfort zone..i know you heard this kinda thing many times over...but the i just pray that you will do something about it...i'm sensing something great coming our way....So...Nites...

Ryan

Amazing Grace Batam

2007-06-15T07:54:00.000-07:00

Ok...i finally gotten done to blogging(I STILL cannot get used to the word) about the Batam trip, prolly coz theres no one to play dota with at the moment...also,,,coz Juli was too lazy to pass me all the wonderful photos our group took during the camp..i'll have to wait till 27 june for her to get back from the Potato Farm...

Ok...Well...the trip was so amazing (Notice the PUN ^^) i dont really know where to start. Anyways...we all met at harbourfront...Clara wanted me to help out with Logistics so i like arrived 45 min earlier than everyone else...Oh well...at least i managed to get the meal at Macs...Ok...so we all met for breakfast and SET OFF!! Oh...before taht...i managed to get Pokemon adventures 24 on an impulse...and Sudoku for some weird reason i forgot...Oh..by the way...I'm team 2...

Oh ya...About the camp...it was a mission camp for the whole church...we split into 2 villages...the adults in 1 and the youth and the bb boys in the other....so...obviously...i went with the youth side... Our purpose there is to basically bless the community... which translates to we set up a funfair...and actually painted a house and furnished it...ok...My group consists of: Joshua, Our "cher" leader, Julianna with her killer calfs and unfunny jokes, Shu anne, tiff, Pearlyn, Cheng yew, Evers, Reuben, Chris, Nicolas, Anthony, Martin, Matt ( he can do 30 pull ups), Rui jie, Chin Yen, Hubert and of course me....So... off we went...

Well...i cant really rmb the whole trip, but there were highs and lows for everyone.. The first day wasnt much...we arrived there in the afternoon, had a service...then went to see our hotel..."sky view hotel it was called"...Sighs...its more of a motel actually...theres like ZERO facilities...and theres not even a roof access where you can view the sky...So..the funny thing was...guys is 5 pple in 1 room...while girls its 3 to 1 room....Funny huh...their like much smaller than us and they can have lesser pple in a room...shld be the other way round -.-...anyways... we only had like 2 single beds for all of us...so we just joined them like i did during sec 3 OEP, and all 5 of us can squeeze in liao...

Of course...i started playing all the mind games i learnt during the BINTAN WOW... really got them cracking their heads...Cedric took like 2 days to figure out the number game... boy was it hilarious....ALso...we played Tee's Tong ka/ bom chi game...dont really know the real name of it...heh...was super fun sia...also got the ice breaking....

Second day was more fun....we had the fun fair ^^...so...on the way there...it started RAINING....OMNIGOSH!!! How to have a fun fair like that.... so we PRayed and Prayed...and Prayed somemore....And God stopped the rain...Although it still drizzled a bit here and there... the rain actually helped to cool the place off... Amazing huh...Also...at that time...Nana suddenly had rashes... so had to be send back to join the adults where the medication is...also...our vans just SO happened to get mixed up...and it was sooo messy...Like clara said...COINCIDENCE?...its more like spiritual warfare man...so we used our most lethal weapon...we PRAYED!!! And it is effective...the rain slowed down...we sorted out the problem with the vans..AND clara actually managed to organize the whole fun fair by herself...smart girl..heh..we set up the fun fair with nary a hitch... man ...the kids there really were hyper... i mean..they seem so happy just like seeing us there...they even made a game out of the water bottles we threw away....so..we set up everything... got down and dirty in the mud...helped transport those 25kg bags of rice...packed everything nicely...and at 2, the fun fair started....Well...me and Matt were put in charge of FOOD Distribution...man...you can NEVER find such efficient and hardworking people anywhere else...before the fair even started..there was a queue of people....so...me and matt used our superior strengh...and 5 minutes later..they were all gone ^^... Effciency at its max if i say so myself..in some circles...they call us Flash...So...those people who unjustly accuse us of that vile term of "slackers", just know that its because we are fast and efficient ^^....yeah...so basically...we juz talked the afternoon...and periodically gave out the food when people came... Well...the thing that struck me th most was the joy in some of their faces...i mean...its not as if we gave them expensive stuff...a few packets of instant noodle...sugar...rice...cheap stuff...prolly wont add up to more than 5 bucks each... but then...they were grateful...and i think that by doing this...we are making a bigger impact than we think...And...its really the simple things in life that we can do to make another person's life a better one...

Well...after the fun fair...we all went for dinner...Well....before dinner came..we played our stoopid games again ^^...super fun..and it really gelled our group together...glad to see the bb people and our church people can mix together in the short period we had...Well...Animal game...Polar bear...Tong ka...it all served to make us more of a group....So...dinner came...and boy was it good... heh..i was sitting at the girls tables...so..more food for me ^^...anyways.. Nicholas...i CANnot believe the SHEER amount of food he can put away..."Feeding a Famine" i would call it...i have no idea how his mum feeds him...5 PLATES OF RICe,....and THATS AFTER 4 BOXES DURING LUNCH...stupendous i must say...so...after that..we went to the bible skool for activities...

Well...we started out with singsperation...then got our camp commandant give his nice talk...then just played really stoopid games lol...we went out...and played double whacko...well...i must say...that game wasnt really as fun as it could be..this was because some of the guys were picking on Reuben..on a serious note..i believed i shld have stood up for him right there and then...but then i was just so blinded by the fun that i totally missed just how much hurt he was going through..it was only until he walked off then i finally realised...sighs...anyways...we played finished our game...good thing Josh lee went to talk to him...i think it really helped him...Wel...later when we went back to the hotel...i talked to him...heard him out...and just helped him through it...ok...i guess this is what Christians do... we help people... anyways...during reflections at night..we brought it up...and i guess the guys realised the mistakes that they made...one of them apologised...and i think that brought that incident to a close...

The next day...we woke up late...and after breakfast...off we went to the other village..this time..we are gonna build tables and paint the walls...well...i volunteered to build the tables even though i didnt go for the training lol...and boy... its quite easy to pick up ^^...so...i finished 1 table...left it to dry..then started to help Maxine lacquer the top of the door since she couldnt reach,,,(Short girl)... so basically thats wad we did the whole day...sounds short...but building tables really take quite a long time...coz gotta sand paper and file the thing too...heh...during that time..i played the slapping game with cedric... One word of advice...NEVER play any game which involves hitting with a polo player...MAN he hits hard....i could tell he was enjoynig that...ANyways...by the end of it...both our hands were all red... Anyways,..,dinner time again ^^...some more fun games..and this time..all of us joined in..not just my table.....Polar bear...Tong ka...so much fun...sad thing the food came lol...it was how fun...after that had another seesion at the bible school...this time after the stoopid games 'cher came up with...we had serious reflection...Ha...at nite also had reflections again..and this time..i guess it was more upbeat...

The real highlight of the camp was after everything...on the last night..for some unknown reason...i found myself lookin for cedric..then found out that he was in the prayer meeting..so i dunno why..but i went to join them...lol...the funny thing was...i went there...and Joel just passed me the guitar for SOME reason...and i played lol....oh...i cant describe that night...the whole room was FILLED with HIS Presence...it was just so amazing...i just played...and prayed...such an enriching experience..im sure everyone who was there has their own sotry to tell...that time was what difining moments are made of....i guess God lead me to that place for that reason...even though i never planned it...

Well...prayer session ended...and thus feeling strangly energised...i wandered around....at the bottom floor..i saw people playing Murderer...so i went to join them ^^.... Heh..Cedric and Eucks (I call Euclid that now ^^) came and joined...funny thing was...cheryl was the only girl there.....oh well...the game was super funny...coz when i was murderer...Dan guess i was coz i was STRANGELY quiet... heh...never play this sorta game with people who have known you for 17 years...oh well...when Cedric was the murderer...the first person he killed was ME..so obvious... im kinda surprised people didnt take that as a clue....sighs....after that... we just wandered around somemore...eventually...bout 3.30..i went back to the room to go sleep...

Next day woke up with panda eyes...morning was just stoning...went back to church for service...for some reason..God became so present at that worship...i nearly broke.. right there and then...man...i never wanted that moment to end...after that... we had the msg...and lunch...was fun sia...was talkin to raj about serious stuff..then played with him the Bang Bang game...took some time for him and his fren to get it lol... after that... went back to the hall for the final debreif...me and cedric played the slapping game again...i still had my battle scars from the previous time... for some reason...everyone else also started playing lol...after a while...i played with Juli...man for a girl..she slaps hard... my hand was super red sia...after that..played with 'cher...bad choice man...he seriously WHACKED me... lol..after that..josh/ cher went to play with joel REALLY bad choice...he had to like stop playing after only 2 hits...thats how hard joel whacks...DONT mess with him lol.... after that we went to the harbour...for some reason..we started to CAM WHORE lol... like seriously...i'll post up the pics once i get them...me and Anthony were like acting cute all the way...of course..this was all Juli's idea...heh...oh...i forgot to mention about her killa calfs.... ok...Juls has SCARY calfs....slim but SUPER defined....its bordering on guydom...oh..i forgot to mention that shes really a guy =p...i mean..wanting a SIX PACK??? ha...the whole trip..we were all obsessing about killa calfs...and all the exercises related to it we can do to get them lol..esp DK and Tian yi....

Boarded the boat...and started playing stoopid games on the boat again lol.... i guess we really made a lot of noise...and SOOO fun...we really clicked together as a team....

ok....its seriously getting late...i better go sleep lol...tmr prolly cannot wake up..anyways....i'll post up all the nice pics once i get them..around the 27th....NITES

RYan

Fishy's Birthday!!!

2007-06-04T06:10:00.000-07:00

Ha...today we went to celebrate <><'s b'dae....by we i mean tek, mary kinks, berts, me, and of course the birthday boy <><....Of course....there's just too much funny nonsense to write about..

Ha...we were SUPPOSED to meet at 11...of course we must be late by at least 15 min...then wait for other pple....by the time all of us were gathered...it was like 12 liao.....anyways...i ate my double western bacon burger at Carl's ^^...Basket....i tell you are...those guys were koping my fries like anything....

Sad thing was...it started drizzling soon....and since we were planning to go to the beach...that really was out of the question.....Ha...then Mary remembered that she wanted <>< to do b'dae dare....so off we went to the Mark and Spencer LINGERIE section.... By now you shld get the picture of what the dare was...heh...the sales assistent was staring at us the whole time.... At least <>< went thru with it...heres visual proof ^^

Ha....you kinda can guess what kind of idiot he is rite now ^^....after that we decided to go watch Pirates....since we BELIEVED it was still raining...SO off we went to buy our nice tix...then realised we all got craving for subway....so with half and hour left...we all chiong to the old harbourfront mall to buy our subs....then...along the way...we realised it STOPPED RAINING....sighs...Anyways...even in subway Feesh cant stop being an idiot

If you notice the straw.....this is a non-refillable station

The show was actually quite nice...dunno why some people said it was a bore...Anyways...after that we just went to the roof of Vivio to wade arnd a bit...then Mary had go home....Of course...Tek HAD to send her off ^^...Ha...the fun starts after she left :P

Just guys....so its POOL TIME....As expected...today all our tyco shots came out...esp mine ^^...I won Tek TWICE...firstly coz he airball the final 9 ball...and secondly coz his whiteball went in the same time as the 9...Of course <>< did a so amazing shot that by describing it wont do it justice...

After that...got John Lee's(My fencing teacher) msg that the comp is TOMORROW!!!hiaz...and for some stoopid reason...its required to wear like ultra high socks....i think they are more like stockings...So the place that has the faintest chance of selling it was the Adidas store...so off we went...Heh...that place was where we wasted a lot of time on nonsense...They didnt have the knee-high socks..but had something else ^^...

If you havent noticed...theres a super big snakes and ladders game on the floor...so we kinda hogged it ^^...Its amazing why they didnt chase us out...of course <>< won with his stoopid amazing luck...got the ladder straight to the finish...

After that I had to zao liao....ha...but today was so retarded and fun..even though we didnt manage to go to Sentosa...Oh well..mayb another time....Anyways...i better go sleep liao...sighs..Tmr im sure gonna die...NITES

Ryan

Bintan WOW

2007-06-02T04:03:00.000-07:00

Haha...firstly....theres a reason for this so veri late post...it coz im too lazy to write/ type out all of the stuff i did during WOW..

Since theres just TOO much stuff for me to BLOG (I still find this word quite queer), i'll just like write the more important stuff...

First things first..The trip there was kinda funny...for some reason...i started talking to edmund like crazy....then YH...then Junen...then there was some crazy bunch of sec 2 kids from a school which starts with M (Its seriously unpronouncable) who were your typical Lians(HEE).... I shan't name any names...but they were super funny sia....Anyways...the trip there was super fun...we were just spouting nonsense..

Second things first...We went to the orphanage...It must be funny to see this sploit city kids from some far off place called Singapore to come to Bintan, then have to put up a show for them lol...Anyways...w found out we had to reciprocate in kind...so off we went on our impromptu stuff...with Gee and the music pple doing their stuff...

Anyways...Third things first....OFF we went to our accomidations...Man...from what we heard from RC(Racheal Cheung for those not in the know), we thought it will be like some hut or smth...but instead...we got A VILLA!!!! Complete with your average tennis court, swimming pool, POOL, arcade( But no one plays it), basketball court, and of course air-conditioned rooms ^^....Anyways...the funny thing was there were 3 rooms...and 2 of them only had 1 KING SIZE bed...so naturally...us guys have to sleep together....Dunno how i ended up with Edmund...Anyways....Teens have raging hormones..and Edmund was no different,....For those who think this sounds quite suggestive...its coz Edmund has queer sleeping habits...Which you REALLY dont want me to elaborate...Anyways...it was pretty normal because John was there...Other than that...SOMEONE keeps on pushing me off the bed in his sleep...

OK...At the orphanage the next day...i volunteered myself..and of course Lionel too...to go wash the toilet...Sai Kang Warriors some pple call us..Anyways...we ended up nice and wet from that ^^... and quite tired...Remainding wasnt much..we just cleaned up and went off...

Came back and finished up painting the toilets...Man..Zhe yu was superhuman...painted one whole one by himself...I was playing with the kids ^^...Anyways..they had this really cool game were you tried to flip this small deck of cards with the wind generated by you smacking the ground with your hands...Hard..and i was the only guy in the class to master it ^^...Heh...the funny thing was...you go there with the mentality of what you can teach these kids...and the funny thing was that they were the ones who ended up teaching me...Mind you...Their english is non-existent...And im QUITE sure my Bahasa is not up to standard...The POINT is...There is much we can learn from the people we are helping...and we should always be humble enough to actually want to learn from them...Sure...they may not be as fortunate as us to be born in such comfortable homes...and but they may still know a little bit more of the world than us....

After that...we went to the nice beachside huts/resort where we did all the stuff like flying fox and mountain climbing...Ok...Firstly...the mountain climbing...was a total embarrassment..Haha..Funny how it doesnt really matter... Anyways...they put me up on the left side...which is like totally impossible for me to climb with my strengh..ANyways.//..thi sapped up almost all of my energy liao....Then...at the retry...i realised i was sweating too much as usual ^^... Of coruse this makes it nearly impossible for me to cling on the rocks...Thus..i was stuck at the same place for a glorious 10 minutes...Um....Sorry about the slippery rock Audrey...Its just my sweat glands working overtime...Oh..and the kick to the face...ENTIRELY UNINTENTIONAL.... i think.... and the sweat...who ask you to be below me....Anyways.. anyone who is reading this can kidna figure out what happened....Ok...so i was the 1 of the 2 guys who didnt make it to the top... but THEN... it makes me UNIQUE ^^...All those losers who made it to the top...ha....all so COMMAN!! It takes A REAL MAN to stand out ^^...

Ok...Next up...Flying FOX!!!.. Man..i was waiting in anticipation for that...ha..i went up...took 1 look down..and knew i could never walk off...So...Being me...i jsut took a few steps back and made a running jump ^^... See...by applying the law of physics...the MOMENTUM will carry you forward..thus it is nearlly impossible to stop...Anyways... You see...for those who WALKED or just slide off from sitting position..the harnass catches you straightaway..thus it issint that scary...Now...if you JUMPED off...you kinda realise you actually go up first...then come down...It took like 2 seconds for the harnass to catch me...and those 2 seconds were SCARY...when i was shouting KUCHIBIRU (Blue Key in Bahasa and something else in jap...) i REALLY was shouting...super fun sia... man...i MUST try Bungee and sky diving sometime soon...REally love the adreneline rush thing...

Anyways...back to Agro...Edmund was teaching me how to break lol...Quite funny...but it seems i got the groove ^^..Sad thing is..i need LOTS more strengh if im gonna do all the crazy nonsense...Of course...we had a fine time playing cards..The pple in my villa: Jun En, Yuan Hao, Berts, Kinks, Edmund, John Wong and ME!!! 'Times in Adhir's language...it means Good Times for those scratching their heads...

Ok..next day off to the nice beach side resort/ huts again..this time we brought all our barang...man..we picked the hut closest to the sea, and boy it was splendid...On the way there...We played all those STOOPID games racheal (The one whos middle name is Kim) came up with...The worse was the MRT game...ha..i shld really give this to pple...they can really kill me for destorying their brain cells... Anyways..other than that...we went kayaking..My kayak was Edmund, Audrey, and myself...Ha...was having a fun time..of course Audrey ha d LITTLE accident to do with a certain liquid..but i shall not elaborate ^^..ha..we could hardlly stop teasing her about it..but it was all fun...Cut myself on the rocks after tryin to get it out FROM the rocks...the water is just too darn shallow....Dunno where we paddled until...then just went back and relaxed..By relaxed i mean i went to play volleyball with Tee and gang... ha..had my dominating spree... of service...then went to play soccer lol...that is NOT my game..but who cares... Had a "BBQ" dinner...which means we had a few sticks of satay each...talk somemore cock....then had prayer meeting (I'll elaborate later), talk about all the serious, important stuff.. and shared a lot...then...we went to sleep...not in the hut mind you...but on that WONDERFUL platform on the water...ha..we took our mattresses out...i took my jacket(I was the only one smart enough to bring it along ^^).. Applied some of Lionel's industrial strength insect repellant....and off we went to sleep in the open...Ha...It was MARVELLOUS!!!FANTABULOUS!!! And all the multi syllible words i can add in to sound smart... heh...man..the stars were SOOO nice...ha..then we started talking cock again....really nonsense...i qoute Lionel " The moon is too bright...can someone switch it off?" Jun En:" This star is too close to the other...someone go move it"...and loads of other nonsense...then we went to sleep..apparently...i was the only one who managed to sleep right thru coz of MY JACKET ^^.. everyone else were lkike freezing coz of the ocean breeze..anyways.... the next day work up like five coz the of the sunrise...man it was nice....heh...i even got a PICTURE to show for it

This was the wonderful sunrise....

Ok....this is seriously getting tedious..but i WILL perservere....ok...we went up on a nice trek up the mountain...quite strenous sia....but was super fun...the view up was quite nice...haha...but the real fun was the long hike TO the mountain..apparently, the forgot to like hire a bus or truck to bring us TO the mountain..so we had to walk there...ha..but that was unforgettable...me Lionel and Joshua were like lagging behind...then out of randomness....we started talking cock like CRAP...i remember in Redwall they call it Boasting...but it was entirely nonsense....Extract of our conversation " I'm not really laggin beind...its just im so fast...i out lap them.."...."In some circles......they call me...Flash..."then it degenerated to who can come up with the most nonsnese Ha...my masterpeace...:" You know lionel...when i sat down...i cause the Great Depression"... wonderful AC culture at its finest....ha...then after we couldnt come up with more retarded stuff..i started my SONG GAME...ha...it sure had Lionel and Josh stumped...who ask them not to listen to Disney songs...hiaz...the unfornuate thing was that Rachel was just walking in front of us..and apparently she ALSO knows the words for the disney songs...she keeps on filling in the words for him....heh...In the end..i think Josh won...by a SMALL margin...

After the mountain trek..we came down..and onto the boat...we were so tired.. the only thing we can do is to just slack on deck....heh...After it set sail for a while...they let down the BOOM NETS!!!!!!!...I tell you Boomnetting is THE way to travel...they basically lower nets at the side..they are partially submerged in water..so you can actually jump into them while the boat is moving...What's the big deal you say....Well..the thing is..the boat has 2 FLOORS!!! So...jumping from high up is THE fun...at first it doesnt look so far...but when you jump...i was like " Oh crap...how come i havent reached the water yet" ha... after that..we just chilled out on the water...so relaxing..and i started playing my song game with lionel again ^^...Switchfoot lyrics are impossible to guess.... really had a great time...

After that...for some reason...Lee Min wanted to take a pic of me and Edmund..for some queer reason..i came up with some really funny pose..and it resulted in my SEXY EYES...i shldnt show it for fear it might burn right through you....haha..after that...we went to this nice deserted Island..."survivor Island" some people call it...Had some really queer hobbies there...Matt Gee was trying to make hermit crabs fight each other...heh...against all odds....we actually had a prayer meeting..i was dumb/smart enough to bring my guitar along to the island...

Next day...we went back to agro for another nites stay...then had the final day at the orphanage..we wanted to finish up and touch up our painting...but then it ended up them putting up a performance again...We had to put up another one AGAIN..Good thing Edmund and Yuan hao had their breaking to show off...After that..it was impromptu all the way...Well...the funny thing was...God actually used this session to use me...Amazing how he uses people at times you never imagine...ANyways.... we had some funny song items like If you are happy and you know it..Apparently, there is a Bahasa version, and Racheal and Eryn sang the nice disney songs...Man their voices rock...Well..no offense...but i kinda saw that the kids had a look of boredom in their eyes...So when dennise asked me:" eh.. you want to go sing A WHole new world(By now everyone knows im a disney buff), i felt the same kinda tug at my heart when the Holy Spirit wants me to do something...So i was like "Lets whack"...Then once the music started playing...I lost ALL inhibitions and started "dancing"...Man...to all those who were there live...I can say that I myself can NEVER do that kinda crazy nonsense by myself...People like me think bout stoopd stuff like reputation.... Heh...but then the Holy Spirit works wonders...When Dennise asked me to sing like another song..A Alicia Keys 1 i think....i was like HUH??? i didnt even know the lyrics...but then...by second chorus...i just felt the same tug...so...i just said a QUICK prayer...i think it went like "Dear God, Please help me, In Jesus Name I pray, Amen."...And off i went on another entirely self-degrading spree..Amazing thing was... it wasnt really all the bad... there were actually people cheering... look back at the video..im kinda struck by how stoopid i look...as Lucius put it: Full marks for bravery, zero for singing...but oh well....we all had a good laugh that day...I'll put the video up once i get it...

Next day went shopping...im too tired to elaborate...just know that the Indonesian idea of "Branded" is seriously lacking..the only good thing there was the pirated games i bought...

Ok....Last day...we had a nice waking up late...then we went to the kfc near the harbour for lunch...Amazingly...we saw a CHURCH/ Missionary school right next to the KFC...so of coruse....us being so excited by actually see a church there..we rushed in to take a look...I guess after all those nites of prayer asking for boldness of believers and hope in indonesia...God answered....Man...we were so warmly welcomed there even though it was entirely unplanned....We even prayed for the school...which is like i think the HOly Spirit leading...anyways..after that we took a picture ^^

Man..those teachers there really ARE living it out...

After going back..we got a scolding from RC...we forgot to tell her of our escapade in all the excitement....heh..amazingly...it wasnt so much a scolding..yet somemore evidence that us going to the church was God's will... of course...our "punishment" was to just stick around the rest of the lunch...of course..we not planning to go look around the streets...talking cock all the time....

Trip back i watched spidey 3/ sleeping...Leemin was camwhoring AGAin ^^...wasnt really taht eventful coz we were all so tired...finally..reached Singapore...

Well...on the the MAIN portion of the trip....For those who are already dying from reading this ULTRA long post of mine...this is the MOST IMPORTANT part...which is about the prayer meetings....This was the time when God was really working in us...setting our hearts right before we go to serve in the orphanage... Before the trip...Edmund like 2 days before..." WHy dont you bring you guitar"..Then out of some weird notion..i actually agreed....First nite of prayer was super amazing sia....so many pple turned up...prolly 20...we were seriously amazed...this is GOD at work...it really set the tone for the trip...

Second day however...it really became severly diminishd...like 7 pple...even though we were all disheartened...we were reminded.."When 2 or 3 are gathered in my name..I will be there with them"...There...we whether 2 or 20 people...God will STILL be with us...so we just continued....i guess smaller groups are better...coz we can mess up the singing all we want..and just go where the spirit leads us....

Third day was basically the same...this time without the girls...Amazingly..we still had 7 pple....God's presence was still so strong....and we just prayed and worshiped....He just reminded me so much about his soveriegnty and his control over the situation...and that we are just his instruments...

Forth day was prayer meeting under the stars ^^....Looking up...you just marvel at the heavensand all of God's creations...this is why David the Psalmist wrote "The Heavens declare your glory"...It just SOOOO vast....with out city lights...you actually see the countless stars in the sky....that evening..we were all sharing with each other our struggles and our problems....it was just so meaningful...and it just so happens the girls wanted to have their own prayer meeting...so us guys can actually openly share....it really was REAL fellwoship...Also that nite..amzing like...Bhupi joined us...it was ENTIRELY unexpected...i mean...he was the last guy anyone expected to turn up...but "My ways are higher than your ways"....and Edmund even prayed for him....this is the Spirit working in the class...

Fifth day Prayer ON THE ISLAND...Like i said...against all odds...we had prayer meeting yet again..even though i was SOOO tired...i struggled thru...and it was rewarding....you see the vast oceans...especially during the day...when we were on the small boat.... from the front...you notice how small we look compared to everything else...you get VERY humbled by your insignificance....Just ON that tday....it was THE global day of prayer...so we joined the nations to pray for the NATIONS... on SURVIVOR ISLAND...can you JUST imagine....this IS passion for Christ.. He is WORTH it

Last day....we yet again had a all guys prayer meeting....ha...had a wonderful time just praising God and thanking for the whole trip and the experiences and fellowship we had....This ended off on a spiritual high...and a real desire to know the Heart of God...

Ok...so 2645 words later...if you are still alive after reading my rantings...i salute you...and i wish you GOD Blesssssss...

Oh...Almost forgot...Shoutouts..something i learnt is a MUST for all bloggers ^^

Edmund..you REALLY are an idiot...of coruse i learnt so much from you...esp breakking AND about what is real passion

Jun En...Crazy dude....man...i wish my voice has the range of yours...heh...keep on rocking

Lionel....heh....Only knew you REALLY recently...Your really a great guy...and so fun to talk to...and for the effort for coming down to pray even though i know HOW lazy you are

Yuan Hao...Even though i like only really got to know you on this trip...it really was great to just sing all your crazy Good Charlotte songs with you...your one whack dude i tell you...bu SO on fire...

Berts...Heh....My Bud from last year....Had a WONDERFUL time with you around....esp all the card games we played ^^...i'll beat you at pool the next time....

Kinks...Ha....Your still a bit quiet...but oh well... this trip is cannot be as fun without you around....been a great expereince...

John Wong..Ha...Thanks for putting up with ALL the noise we were making...and for me and edmunds' queer sleeping habits...

Audrey and Leemin...Haha...i only got to knwo you 2 on this trip...but you girls are SURELY getting infused with the AC retardedness...I rmb drey going on and on and on and on about her skirt...while Min was camwhoring....made me take like 3 pics of you in diff poses ;P...didnt know both of you were in bb....oh well...mayb i'll go back 1 day...Anyways...i know the passion for God both of you have....make sure to keep it burning bright

Josh...Putting up with me and Lionel's nonsense....and you BETTER delete that video...

EVERYONE ELSE...didnt really get to talk to the rest of you guys much...but it SURE was fun....Adhir, Tee, sloke, lucy, Bhupi, you guys sure a funny....ian, Eugene, Joash, all the musical people...even though i didnt really talk to you guys much...i WILL get you back IAN....and of course the girls lol....Eryn, Alyssha ( Notice their names aren't comman), Dennise, jeannette, Christine, Racheal....You girls are slowly but surely getting ACed....

Ok....Thats all..NITES!

Ryan

Math Partfolio

2007-05-19T08:37:00.000-07:00

Ok...This stoopid thing is like the bane of my life....I just cannot believe WHY people want you to have 3 different methods to solve 1 stoopid problem....Ok....I am officially stoned right now....probably because I have been TYPING MATH FOR 4 HOURS ALRDY!!!! And i STILL cannot solve Question 5....

Typing Math...is just sheer torture...i CANNOT believe that those stoopid people at the IB cannot just let us write it out...its is SOOO much faster...( If i sound very angry right now...its coz im stoned...im not usually like this ;P) Anyways....this stoopid thing seriously is taking up too much of my time.....

Anyways...back to yesterday...GROUP FOUR PROJECT!!! The most amazing slackest day with my bunch of slackers/teamates....Officially, our project was to find out how the concentration of salt affects the rate of evaporation of water....Sounds cheem...in REAL life...our task is to measure how long the water takes to boil after we add salt in it ^^. Considering we dont have to use any acids or microscopes like some groups...i say ours is the EASIEST...Anyways...most of the day was spent playing cards....During the experiment itself...me and Gerald actually broke stuff...Its the FIRST time we did for the whole year...amazingly...i dont think we got charged for it...on hindsight...i can be certain that it is <><'s aura that is causing all this. B4 he was around, we NEVER broke anything...

Anyways...after the whole group four project thing...i went to watch Spiderman 3 with Edmund...Too bad Jim last minute dowan come..the show was actually good...Its like those kinda inner battle thing...and the fight scenes were super cool too....Best thing was...we watched at jurong...AT LAST, somewhere near my house.....yeah...Had fun going out with edmund...shld prolly do it more often nexzt itme....

Ok...i am just TOO stoned to blog somemore...so...NITES

Ryan

Climbing Mt. Homework

2007-05-16T04:40:00.000-07:00

Well....from the title, you can roughly guess what this post is going to be about...Another long boring one on the tremendous amount of homework poor me has. Well....Its not just that simple. Yesterday...i actually STAYED UP TO 12...DOING HOMEWORK...Its like a first for a slacker like me lol...Well...I tried to do Chem prac 6, IOP Presentation, AND Hist. IA all in 1 nite....Well....their ALL DONE, except for Hist which only has 1 more section to go...and boy...my IOP GOT 22/30 ^^....I beat Mary AND TEK!!!! YES!!!!

Anyways...today i got back like my tests.....lol....when Tzu Yong gave out the test...mary said she will commit suicide if i got higher than her....Of course...i volunteered to help her ^^...heh...anyways....i TOPED THE CLASS!!! YAY!!!! Amazing....This actually proves my theory that studying a little actually helps you to score better rather than studying a lot...Anyways....just when i was about to help her commit suicide...she actually had to msg the one and only tek... then cannot liao :(.. Oh well..theres always next time...

Speaking about my theory...my Math got 49/60 ^^...Yet another subject i hardly study for...the only time i actually DO math was in class...thus....by the way of INDUCTION (Yet another math term i learned)...I can say that studying a little does your grades wonders... On the other hand...the subject i actually mugged like CRAZY only JUST PASSED...which is my econs....sighs...i nearly failed lol....good thing i counted the addition of marks.... James Ong forgot to count in my ESSAY MARKS!!! Can you believe it....haha....As usual Juli topped the class AGAIN...quite demoralising to sit next to her....Anyways...i kinda challenged her...that i will beat her the next time ^^....Of course this is like commiting Harikiri....Shes gonna study the WHOLE hols....kinda hard to beat.

Heh...of course G-wen will disprove this theory...but shes the exception...coz shes a born mugger...not a day goes by without her mugging :D...If you are reading this G-wen...its a good thing your taking a break from studying,..;P...

Anyways....today i went to man the CyberAC again...lol..we are getting CAS AND CASH for our OEP by just playing CS...Wonderful idea the people came up with...Once again..i proved to myself that im better at dota than CS....

Ok...I better go do my work liao...Hist IA still got 1 last section to do...and MATH PORTFOLIO!!!!AHHH!!!!Sighs...this is gonna give my white hair...NITES

Ryan

The Angel Of Music

2007-05-12T07:32:00.000-07:00

Well.....on Thursday i went to watch The Phanthom Of The Opera.....SIA PPS Club held some sorta function there....its like the tickets were sold at half price...PLUS theres a before show cocktail and intermission too ^^. So naturally i just HAD to go... and so did my parents...Well...the show was marvellous...The props were damn nice sia....why nicer than anything Tong can make:P......anyways..i tried to record some of the songs on my fone budden the quality is super lousy,....coz of all the echos the hall makes....Its amazing how loud they can sing....tehres no mike but then they were singing like they had....

Well...theres smth about the ending that strikes me...well...the Phanthom let her go because she said she doesnt see him as the deformed monster he is...and that she accepted them...Well....Theres all the things about judging people by their outward appearance....and i think that this show is just a reflection of that....The persecution just because of his looks drove him underground.... Well...it took just one person who accepted him for who he is to turn his whole life around....I think that being that one person is really tough in this world....but then i know lots of people (Including me ) Who are really making the effort to stop judging people...

Friday....Nice short day.... nothing much...except for the after school activities.... Went down to play squash with Lionel.....Saw Tek and Mary there.... I tell you...me and lionel played like 15 plus sets....he kinda lot count after the 7th....heh....at least i manged to beat him in 2 ^^....ANyways....after playing that much,....i made the horrible mistake of askin Barney to train me...he told me to join the girls he was coaching lol...warm-up....20 court sprints....Xiong sia...i cant believe how far my stamina had fallen...Anyways...after that he taught me the basics....something i REALLY lack..( I lost 3/4 of my points just from missing shots lol)....After that....man my body was aching....Ha...but then still went to play with lionel a few more sets...i manged to beat him in 1 though..... and tek and mary were still playing until we trained finish....

After that i went to eat....apparently mary wanted me to treat her otherwise she wont eat....go figure...then STARVE LA... gd thing i met jaime right after that...otherwise will be a lonely 5 o'clock lunch.... Some pple from her class was learning dance...so we just sat down and ate....Sian...After helping Han an return his plate to the pasta store...the Auntie hard-sell me her mudpie sia..even though its quite gd....its 2.50 a slice...im gonna go broke..she better give me free stuff next time sia....

Saturday....spent like the whole day in church...woke up at 9..bummed around until 10
then bathe and went for worship prac....Psalm 84....really a meaningful psalm...you shld go check it out...Anyways,...our band started out REALLY small...only me( the A Guit), Ben who was trying to play bass for the first time an co-leading at the same time,,, minwei, shumay who was the leader...Min jia on the key boards...and zestin and joel on the drums..Apparently, Daniel didnt receive any email...so we were missing a keyboardist...Halfway thru the prac...Ben realised that his bassing REALLY cannot make it...so he switched back to E Guit....So that was our motley crew....Anyways....JUST as we were about to go for lunch...Joel.,...HAD to sprain his ankle...therefore he couldnt play drums.....Thats a SEVERLY diminished band...But God pulled thru...just b4 we ere about the start...we got Aaron on the bass and Euclid to drum for us.... Gd thing they were pro...and the songs weren't too hard....so eveything went smoothly...God is Good as the always say...

Well..this must be my longest post yet....hope you guys who actually read this get a glimpse of my boring life...and a few suprises here and there....NITES

Ryan

Something Random, Something Interesting

2007-05-08T07:08:00.000-07:00

Well....today was yet another long and boring day in school....especially with the 1.66 hour econs period at the end of they day....anyways....first lesson: history...COM LAB!!!! haha...we ended up in the lab with all the lousy coms...the kind where the connection is totally bad...

Anyways...gd thing got some smart dude dled emporer demo (Its a game if you havent realised), so i started playing it ^^. really fun, and tee taught me some stuff on it too... Anyways....after playing like an hour on it...i went down to do the actual research on Hilter and Stalin. Now theres 2 messed up pple if you ever done research on. "Uncle Dolf and Uncle Joe" was what my teacher called up if i remember correctly....Anyways....theres 1 portion of the worksheet called " Tantilising Titbits"...Ha...you wont believe some of the facts that Mary found ( Shes quite hardowrking actually...)

1. Hitler had a thing going on with his neice...
2. Hitler apparently got syphilis from some German whore
3. Hitler allegedly only had 1 testicle due to the above mention desiease.
4. Stalin's dad was an alchoholic, his mum sent him to church school.
5. Stalin won a scholarship, he could have become a PRIEST!!!

Ok...theres some trivia for today....In addition to this nonsense w discovered during history, TOK was kinda worse...Apparently, people in Britian are actually quite disturbed...My teacher actually told us some of the TRUE cases:

1. 5 pple in the morgue apparently raped the corpse of a very beautiful lady who died in a car crash.........SICKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!
2. 2 male wards raped an unconscious girl in the hospital while she was recovering from a cancer op and heavily sedated.....KAO!!!!!! NO CONSCIOUNCE SIA!!!!

So....This world is seriously going down the drain...Its evident that the world wasnt as perfect as it once was. For those who follow the Bible...its gonna get a LOT WORSE...and things like that korean guy rampaging through skools are going to increase in the future...Just pray hard...and you will get thru these times...

Ok....thats my trivia for today...and my post after Jess asked me to (Goopid Stirl =P)....Nites

Ryan

Late Night Studying...

2007-05-02T06:25:00.000-07:00

Man...just when you thought that everything was under control....that all the work is still only faber hill...it suddenly grew into the himalayas OVERNIGHT!!! NICE IOP and tests.....I tell you....econs is one of the most MAFAN humanes to ever take...its even more demanding in format compared to hist...AND DIRECTLY THE OPPOSITE WRITING STYLE!!! Its seriously stoopid...

Anyways...i kinda got the interactions and elasticities nailed down....but theres still HISTORY to worry about....Apparently....Gerald said theres a lot to cover and i found out there issint much (My classmates back me up on this one)...Thing is....we both are under the SAME TEACHER..so prolly will have the SAME tests....Hiaz....... oh well...at least the tests arent counted......And i seriously needa go for consultation with James Ong...Writing style is JUST too alien to me....

Ok...enough blabbering away...needa go back and STUDY!!! its seriously so unlike me...must be the inner change... Anyways...today the chinese teacher nvr come....PRAISE THE LORD!! I still DONT know the questions for the 2 chinese compos....

OK...and my stoopid jacket is smeeling of xiao ji...NEXT TIME...DONT BRING IT DOWN TO THE SAC!!!! (Directed to Mary....)...NITES!

Ryan

Love is not just an emotion

2007-04-30T05:04:00.000-07:00

Heh...with such a serious title....you kinda expect me to be like all emo and preachy or smth like that...or like i got dumped/rejected or smth like that....Well....none of that nonsense....

Lets start...today during TOK...we had it at the CPA...really comfortable ^^. Anyways...I slept thru most of it...Amazing thing was...i was woken up when Wong Ping Loong started talking about LOVE. well...apparently, scientists have deduced that love and the effects we get are caused by some chemical called phynopthelemine (I know this sounds like the chemistry indicator but trust me...its entirely different)...so...rite after that i kinda payed attention :)...anyways...RIGHT after recess... saw edmund and wesley talking on the bridge...so decided to join them ^^...Seem like i was intruding lol...budden they didnt seem to mind...anyways... out of the blue, or prolly coz i was talking about that stoopid chemical that i cant spell, edmund suddenly said,"Love is not just an emotion"....This SERIOUSLY hit me... "If you love me you will obey my commands"...these are the Words of Jesus...serious stuff man...

Anyways...went home and read the final book of the Left Behind Series....Kingdom Come....really God-inspiring,....something i really needed to wake up my idea..."But Lord, love my enemies?"...."Yes..Pray for them...so that none my perish"....

These pass few days i was like going around saying "I love you" to like practically anyone..(mostly guys btw)... these words cant be taken lightly.... its a command...and i fully intend to follow it....You know what that means? <>< and WESLEY... you guys ARE going to accept CHRIST!!!! Coz i LOVE YOU GUYS BEYOND MEASURE!!!! and i JUST CANNOT let you go to hell...Heres the first line of a song i just feel the presence of God in:

The Greatest Love that anyone could ever know
It overcame the cross and grave to find my soul

Its more than just an emotion..its ACTION...

Nites

Ryan

I'm Going On A Savings Spree!!

2007-04-29T05:40:00.000-07:00

Sunday Night....the day before Monday Blues....and i suddenly realise im eating a LOT in skool....practially having 3 meals there.....and not ONLY does it mean i'm gonna grow fatter....BUT...I'm SPENDING MORE THAN I CAN AFFORD!!!

So....in light of all this information....no more 3 bucks pizza...no more 3 bucks ramly burger....just eat 1 lunch...THATS it....no more Hello Panda..Even though that is seriously too hard to bear....

Ok...other than talking about food....I'm gonna talk about my SPIRITUAL LIFE!!! Anyways...to all of you guys reading this....I'm quite sure you know that I'm a Christian...even though sometimes you can't tell by my behavior...Well....I've done some soul searching....so I'm TRYING to be a better Christ-Imitator....So that means,.....no more taking extended toilet breaks or ponning altogether Chinese Class.... I'll finish ALL my zuo wen (All 5 of them)....(You kind of realised everything is to do with Chinese).....and actually STUDY for my tests....So...if any of you pple see me slacking of during some of the periods...GImme a Gd knock and remind me...coz its SERIOUSLY difficult....

Ok...tts all i have to say...NITES!

Ryan

Yet another Thurday

2007-04-26T06:16:00.000-07:00

The most dreaded day of the week......The day right before 'Thank God it's Friday'....the stoopid day that ends at 4.40....the day that has no reprieve from the never ending stream of lessons....HAS ONCE AGAIN CAME TO A CLOSE!!!! HURRAYY!!!!

Anyways.....had a 1 hour 20 min recess today...so trotted off to go play squash....I think i improved SLIGHTLY...used Tek's cheap tricks of bouncing all along the side walls....made Zhe Yu run a LOT ^^...in the end still lost sia....REALLY needa work on my serving....seriously too weak....

Well...today an additional thing happened....i seriously think its like a total accident....Bert threw the squash ball at me...so i ducked...didn't notice that stoopid chair that was rite in front of me...and BANG...my poor head....I think Edmund purposely put it there....that idiot...:p...i'll get my revenge 1 day soon...

Ok....running out of things to type...so NITES!

Ryan

Short and Simple

2007-04-25T06:51:00.000-07:00

Ok...this will be short and simple....Today a lot of things were going thru my mind....primarily the changing of coaches....Its quite a trying time for me...coz you kinda get used to 1 after a while...

I think God is tryin to move our club in a new direction....There had been some stagnation and loss of team spirit recently....even i felt a little down...Anyways...the sad thing was that today sloke decided to quit....Quite sad...seriously....he actually was like one of the most improved pple.... Oh well...its his choice....Had severe mental block today...cant even fence Chee properly....and got whooped by Barney....Oh well...Too much stuff running thru the head...Sighs...at least i still got Joel and Daniel

All in all...i'm just trusting God to take care of everything...I'm just here for the ride...hopefully tomorrow will bring new surprises and joy...."His mercies are new every morning".....NITES!

Ryan

Yet another Tuesday

2007-04-24T07:11:00.000-07:00

Well...today was like any Tuesday....except it was my final lesson at Henry's (At least for the moment).....*Sobs*.

Skool theoratically endd at 2 today, coz James Ong nvr come, so happy free periods. Anyways...i ended up going home at 5 coz my ez-link card had EXACTLY -1 cent on it, and i forgot to put money in my wallet. Thus, had to w8 for my mum which was at 5...Hung around with <>< and edmund after skool a bit, right before they went for dance...Saw edmund break a bit too... looks like hard work....

Well....then went for training....like normal...except had lesser pple...One last thing...I LEFT MY PHONE AND WALLET THERE!!!!AHHHH!!!!!! its like how mafan.....ok....my hand is getiing pain just from typing...NIGHTS!

Ryan

EU Conference

2007-04-23T06:05:00.000-07:00

Well, today school was nothing much exciting, except for that EU conference that we attended. Firstly, the EU wants to set up an awareness program in schools.....go figure.....people from ang moh land wants to let us students be more aware of them...especially after we studied their history to such detail....esp GERMANY.

The ride there was quite fun....even though Mary took whatever oppotunities to whack me.....Damn violent sia....Anyways....after we were all seate in the TPJC Audi, and all the Delegates got seated....that stoopid roof started LEAKING... Actually, it was more like a downpour, and it was right above where all the delegates were sitting. This I kid you not: THe leak came from the LIGHTS. At first it was only 1, then it started SPREADING.....lol......Anyways...the talk didnt last very long though......however it was funny to see all the TPJC people who are dressed with blazers and all take cloths and mops to go and clean up the water :P

The ride back was another issue. Mary gave me a sample of her songs...Apparently, the only english songs she has are Christian, and theres like only 2 of them. The rest of them are like Korean or Jap, with some chinese in between. Sighs....Anyways...came back to skool, saw the squash courts lights were on....so i trotted down to go play ^^. Unfortunatly, my parents came too fast so i couldnt play much....

Well... thats another day in the LIfe of Ryan....NIGHTS!

Ryan

P.s. Http://kiwiberries.blogspot.com has NOTHING to do with me...even with the super large coincidence...its prolly some dellusional girl who has a crush on a guy called RYAN...I kid you not...so STOP ASKING ME ABOUT IT!!!

SGX!

2007-04-20T08:25:00.000-07:00

Ha....today had that stoopid SGX breifing/training. I tell you, there is not another more useless briefing in the whole wide world. I mean, how much comman sense does it take to know that more risk equals more gains? Oh well, at least the food was good. Good thing <>< and I went out earlier for our extended toilet break ^^. When we came back, just nice the food laid out alrdy...So being ourselves...we decided to help ourselves to them ^^ Not bad i must say, Old Chang Kee,with all the nice local fare. The people there were quite frenly, and quite amused by our antics... I guess office people are still people after all. Im guessing all of their laughing is due to some part of <>< stuffing 3 big puffs under his jacket to make him more pregnant than he alrdy was :D.

Well, the briefing ITSELF was ultra boring, with that stoopid speaker going on and on....gd thing i sat next to Jaime...She's damn fun to be around with...I guess having a daughter like that can't be TOO bad...Btw, she kinda claims that i'm her mum, which i had proven to her (Not literally) that it is a biological impossibility. Well, dear old Jaime is quite good at drawing, so she took the liberty to draw a nice design on my left hand. Quite good i must say. Of course, <>< being the beng he is, wanted her to help him draw a dragon around his arm.... Unfortunately for me, Mary was sitting rite next to me on my right.After see what Jaime did to me, she took the liberty to draw on my RIGHT hand....Man, her grip is like a bear, cant get mt hand out in time...B4 i knew it.. she wrote Ryan <3 Gay Guys...Well... i took my revenge by writing Mary <3 Les girls on HERS...Bad thing is...she didnt seem to mind...

Throughout the whole thing, i couldn't stop laughing. Jaime was the one who was high at first, then i became me....<>< nvr fails to provide a laugh or a million. Well, after the whole thing was done, Tek, Mary, Loon and I trotted down to Vivo to go keikei( I think thats how you spell it). Hmmmsss.....There...i made my SUAN OF THE DAY to Mary...which of course gave her the licence to tao me....Bad thing was..she grabbed my shoe bag and started playing with it at the Vivo pond areas. TEK LA, encourage her until like that. THen she butter fingers once, and DROPPED IT IN. Sighs.....Oh well...at least debt was repaid as of then...

Oh well...that day was super fun...just normal talking cock with good buddies...Sad thing was, G-wen had to go back to Aussie liao, together with Giddy...GOnna miss their nonsense...oh well, theyre comin back in july....so will see them soon...

Well, my mudder making a lot of noise liao...beter let her use the com. NIGHTS!

Ryan

I STILL HATE AC SOCKS!

2007-04-18T06:18:00.000-07:00

Second day im wearing them....and i still think their the most digusting thing to ever cross the planet. Who NEEDS school socks, i mean...I wear LONG pants for crying out loud, not as if anyone will see....the only time people will see is when i change to PE attire, and they look positively ATROCIOUS with sports shoes.....I kinda look like some old man with not a drop of fasion sense......I bet any respectable GENTLEMAN would refuse to wear it.

Today training yet again in the stuffy MPH. I hate the floor there, too sticky, cant move properly....makes my actions so awkward. Today was like the first time i didnt go for free fencing after training... Realised not much use sia, fence the same old people every time. They know all my tricks liao, not much fun, then now will lose.....I still dunno how to tell Henry i'm switching coach. The problem is that all 3 of us ( Mich, Ash, and Me) are changing at the SAME TIME, makes it look damn bad sia...Hiaz...hope God can give me the rite words

Sianzzzz.....No mood to do iop sia...and its due on fri.......OH MAN....jean lua irritates people sia.....dont juz tell us to do a 1.5k word analysis in 2 days.... Ok... enough complaining liao...think i will get rite at it.....

Tmr is THURSDAY, the longest day in the week...1 day b4 fri, and they HAD to make it a full day.....oh...prolly will help out the people to bake stuff for the fundraising...will be quite fun...and can steal licks from the pan ^^ Ok....tts all i have to say....blogging is like my squakbox sia...you people who read it really HAVE NO LIFE SIA!!! HAHA!!!!

Ryan

P.s. JAIME!!! GET WELL SOON!!!!AND FASTLY HELP ME DO MY IOP!!!

Tired like Anything

2007-04-17T08:10:00.000-07:00

Ok, since today i am SUPER TIRED, i wil hardly write anything here. Nice i reach home at 10, after 1 long day of skool and training, then i have to do that STOOPID TULIPS! Good thing Gerald got his Tulips back, then i could borrow the question paper. Didnt even get it.....

Sianz...today hardly played squash coz firstly, got no one to play with. And secondly, the school team got training, therefore they use all the courts. Hence, i went for the alternative: BASKETBALL!!!! Met <>< too, amazaing timing.

Oh, kids these days....so selfish. Well, i borrowed a racket to play from this guy, Sec 2-3 i think. Then he became like super angry or smth..( I think it has to do with Josh lending it to me) He like put on a super angry, then started swearing beneath his breath, and threw a tantrum. Go figure, this is supposed to be a GENTLEMAN. I don't know what they teach pple in school these days.... Anyways, i prolly dont want to be around when the team trains liao, coz pple so possesive of their stuff....

Ok...its getting late liao....GD NITE!

Ryan

I HATE AC SOCKS!

2007-04-16T07:14:00.000-07:00

Ok...today the digusting socks finally arrived. I would have posted a picture of it here, but I was afraid that the sher ugliness of it will crack the camera lens.... Its uber high, and the design is just ROTTEN. I kinda feel sorry for the girls. At least us guys got long pants to cover it up ^^, but they have to show it off... I think we will see a suddeny rise in girls wearing pants from tommorow onwards. I can't believe they made it compulsary for us to buy it, at 10 bucks for 3 pairs. Its a total ripoff.

Today was kinda ok, passed by quite fast. Thats actually kinda weird for a school day. It normally just keeps on dragging on and on....Oh well, this may be the start of more things to come.....Oh, today i saw that Dr. Ong got a new GOLF BUGGY for him to drive around campus.....go figure....Saw it parked right next to his Merc Benz. Its things like this that really makes me wonder.......I can't say out loud, other wise theres a chance i'll get really whacked by the senior admin.....:(

Hiaz, today Gwen got sore eyes man. Thats juz so sad... prolly treat her another day. GET WELL SOON! B4 you go back to Aussie, otherwise will die in the plane....

AHHHHHH, I finally finished by FIRST Econs IA essay.....HORRRAAYYY!!!!! Took me like 1 hour plus plus sia, jsut can't pin down the format. Hopefully it cant actually get a decent grade....

Ok, Im feeling so sleepy....GD NITE

Ryan

SUNDAY!

2007-04-15T06:23:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS SUNDAY!!!!HOOORRRAAAAYYYY!!!!! Well, church was great as usual. Today's CE class was on submission to authority.....:s Well, i guess i have to SUBMIT AND OBEY my parents from now on. Worship was AWESOME, with uncle Bill leading. Too bad Rapheal didnt turn up today, i wanted to pass him the shirt.

Ok, today had training with the cheena coach again. Sweated a lot as usual, learnt a thing or two, and of course had everyone starting at me while :s Oh, after that went to dinner with my parents at VALENTINOS! Great Italain food, with great wine. Oh, after that the owner gave us some GRAPPA for being so honest about the bill. Man, Grappa ROX. It basically has the same kick as vodka but no disgusting super glue taste. I dont mind having another shot or 2 :p

And JAIMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEE, I THOUGHT ur lit very good ONE!!!!!!!! I suppose the stuff African Poets write dont make sense

I PASSED MY NAPFA!!

2007-04-13T07:35:00.000-07:00

Well, today's title kinda speak for itself...Whats so great a deal you ask? Heh, here's the history of my nafta record. Since sec 1 till sec 2, yours truly managed to get mostly 3As, 2 Bs, and a FAIL. Whats this station? its that stopid STANDING BOARD JUMP. I just CANT jump to save my life. Queer thing for a basketball player too....oh Well......

Anyways, back to today. i jumped....to 215 CM!!! its like ACHIEVEMENT! hmmms...mayb if i push it up to C, and do 1 more chin-up, i actually can get GOLD! THEN can have LESSER NS!

Oh, other than that, today i actually picked up SQUASH! its like FUN, Second to fencing and on par with playing bball....thats how high i rank it. Learnt it from Lucy(Lucius for the people who dont know) in like 20 min, then off we went. Good thing was, i can beat Mary, budden thats not such a great achievement.( I think her pychomotor skills still needs some work) I prolly will start will squash with the rest of the people during recess. It will be like sec 1 all over again, except this time its squash, not bball....

Ok, its time to go to sleep, and Jaime will prolly annotate my IOP finish by tmr ^^. NITES

Ryan

Council Elections

2007-04-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

Well, today was voting day for the 2nd council elections. Well, I have to say, IT WAS BORING. I MEAN, after ALL that campaigning, there wasn't even a last-ditch effort to garner more vots. Oh well, i managed to vote the pple i wanted to vote. The thing was, i was kinda saddened that some pple only their friends. Even I have to admit, some of my choices were because i knew the person personally. People also tend to negative vote candidates just because they " Don't like his face", or because they think hes not "cool" enough. I mean, these kind of candidates are actuallly the best people for the job, cause they have the right heart, and can actually contribute meaningfully to the school. On the other hand, there are some people who juz want to get into council for the prestige, and of course the boasting rights. Theres no heart of service, and thats what the 2nd most important thing. Of course, since im a Christian, I feel that having the hear for God is the MOST importnat thing when running for council, thats my FIRST criteria when im voting. Prolly coz things kinda falls in place when a person is really chasing after God, no matter how scrooed up they are (heheh jelon :P).

Ok, thats my 4 cents worth for the day. Oh, i also FINALLY manged to install CnC 3 on my com, can't wait to play it tmr ^^.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

2007-04-10T07:17:00.000-07:00

Today, Jaime, Gerald and I went to KAP,and guess what we found.......YES! KIWIBERRIES!!!! Even though they were a tad expensive( 5.20), it was worth it. Ha, we talk cock for the whole 2 hours, n we hardly got any work done lol. Havent talked with Gerald like this for a LONG time. Anyways, I even saw my parents at the Cold Storage downstairs, and they were nice enough to buy me another packet of kiwiberries ^^. Man, its gd to have your folks around.

Ok...training was ok, if not a little boring and basic. Finally saw Michelle and Ashykin fence today lol....Quite entertaining, but they got a long way to go, and so do I. Thinking about it, i realised that there must be some reason for me taking up fencing. I mean, this was just some random out of the blue impulse i had when i went up to sign of last year. The thought of fencing never even cross my mind before i joined. God prolly got some BIG BIG plan for me in fencing, coz this passion is quite beyond me. I'll just pray and see what He has in store for me. Oh, anyone who reads this, pray that God will help me make the decision of whether to change coach, and if i am, help me to phrase it nicely so as to not hurt Henry's feelings.

Ohwell, enough of today, im tired, and theres still training tmr. GD NITE, and GOD BLESS!.

P.s. Gwen, the bracelet is SERIOUSLY lopsided.

Monday, April 9, 2007

2007-04-09T06:26:00.000-07:00

After spending half the night on the stoopid CHEM REPORT 5, i finally got bored enough to start typing on this blog....hmmmssssss...i starting to get a bit sian of this liao

Chem Prac was quite fun, although i dont know why, we actually did that stoopid experiment 5 times, and i was the one measuring the mass, not an easy job.

Anyways...today was a SUPER EMBARASSING DAY LA.....i always wanted to whack that indian teacher. Good thing God helped me hold back my temper. After skool, Lucas helped me to see that it was actually MY FAULT that i was scolded......amazing how God works rite? I dont see anyone who will laugh, but only one who i knew from eons ago, to help me see my mistakes. Amazing....I still dont know about tmr though, think will get my share of laughs....but oh well.....i got to live with the consequences. Oh....Joel...Sorry about ur book...i'll return it tmr.....PROMISE!

Ok...School was nvr that exciting....nothin much to talk about.....except Gwen altered the bracelet wrongly ( Thx anyways). Ok...Im signing out

Ryan

Easter Sunday!

2007-04-08T05:57:00.000-07:00

Firstly, its EASTER SUNDAY!!!! THE DAY OF THE RESURRECTION!!!!!! Heh... once again, I was reminded of the Ultimate Sacrifice, and of course the significance of it all. Loved the worship, Sandra of course was a super powerhouse when it came to singing.

Oh Before talkin about today, let me tell you why Lintong will make the perfect wife :p:

1. She sews
2. She cooks ( I think, but don't know how well)
3. She's a perfectonist so she will clean
4. She makes her own clothes so you won't have to buy them for her
5. She has no social life so you won't have to spend too much money

( This whole list was from Joel Tay, and Tong was chasing him around trying to whack him with an umbrella after he told me that ^^)

Anyways...back to today...Gwen came back, and it was Mei Fang's B'dae, so we all trotted down to celebrate. It was great fun, even though Daniel forgot that Newton hawker centre doesn't open in the afternoon. We talk a lot of cock, then went to Tcc to cut cake. Ha, that stoopid waiter told us that next time, we hafta order a cake from there if we wanted to cut. Oh, today MEI YANG WAS HOW DEAD LA. It just even the same without a hyper Yang. Hiaz....maybe next time we go out she will get that life back...oh well..... Anyways...Sunshine is a damn EMO show sia, in the end everyone all die. Then got some retarded slasher part about this captain that went crazy or smth, then killed people coz he wanted the sun to die.....go figure.

Good Friday!

2007-04-06T07:27:00.000-07:00

Man......Good Friday..... its like D-Day, except much more important.

Basically, i practically wasted the entire day on the com lol. This of course is not a good sign. Anyways, it was practically super boring until i went for the night service/ evangilical meet. Man, was i reminded of the Greatest Love. Props to the deco people, coming with the receipt concept. The night held lots of surprises. Firstly, Chun sang the song item. Boy, hes like angelic when he sings man.

Secondly, i saw Nana in a SKIRT! I was like ZOMG! FIRST TIME EVER. Compared to the jeans look, this is like ZOMG. Yep, strange things come when you least expect it. Heh, of course i talk cock with my dearest cousin, and hear all the crap he had to say :p.

Anyways, back to serious stuff. I cant begin to describe to you how much God touched my tonight. It wasnt just some nice fancy Clip from the "Gospel Of John" that they showed. This was actually a real event that happened more than 2000 years ago. I was constantly reminded by God that I was why he came down to earth. And yep, theres just that major price issue, in blood of course. Throughout the course of the day, i had this nagging feeling in my heart to sing out this song. Its called Daddy Why by Nicole Nordeman. Basically, the last 2 verses goes like this:

Father why are they screaming,
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are some of them casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurt me more than it shows.
Father please, Can't You do something,
I know that You must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle the cross of this size.
Father remind me why,
Why does everyone want me to die,
When will i understand why?

My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watchning th face of the Enemy beaming
But soon i will clothe You in robes of my own.
Jesus this hurts me much more than You know.
But in this dark hour I must do nothing,
Even though i hear you unbearable cries.
The Power in Your blood destroys all of the lies,
Soon You will see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look there below see the child trembling by her father's side.
Now i can tell you why,
She is WHY YOU MUST DIE.

That child could have been anyone, but He would still die for you. Thank you Jesus

Love, Ryan

FIRST POST!

2007-04-05T06:32:00.000-07:00

Well.......this was an entirely random thing i created due to extreme boredom and the previewing of Edmund's blog.( I guess its inspirational :p) Oh well, i guess this is more useful than just playing Dota with random people.

Im sure all of you guys are wondering what are KIWIBERRIES! Firstly, let me just say that it is THE most DELICIOUS fruit you will ever taste. Imagine cherry tomatoes with the taste of Kiwi.... im considerably drooling at just the thought of it; its like solid nectar from heaven!

Oh well....enough of that fruit, on with my day. Man, today was a damn funny day sia, not counting the LSY Speaker thing. We played ball after school. Due to the Sudden expansion of the basketball team, both courts were used up. Therefore, Tek, Mary, Shao Yi and I had to walk all the way to Loons house, to pick up <>< ( that idiot) and the ball, then walk ALL the way to dover court. I tell you, that <>< ate more of my ice cream than me.

Anyways, the most hilarious part was when we actually started playing. Since my fencing is orientated to my left, i had to orientate back to my right to play properly. Of course, this juz means more air-balls. OK. Here was the CHAIN OF UNFORNUATE EVENTS. When Shao was dribbling out, i smacked the ball, which hit his face ( quite gently actually). <>< of course, had to kick me for "injuring" his teammate. Well, my natural reaciton was to land a good one on his rear, but he managed to dodge it backwards, kicking Tek's ankle in the process........ Get the picture? Well, after that, all of us were rolling about on the fall, and the only one un hurt was Mary! Girls get away with lots of stuff.....

Anyways, thats most of the interesting stuff, life is never boring with my frens around ^^. Oh, im still fighting the good fight, and keeping the faith. It issint easy, but im sure God will see me through all the days of my life.

FIRST POST DONE!